A N I S 97

it's wrap up! i've done what i've planned for -U- and like i published before (even there was few changes ;)). hope he had a great time last night.

and now, i'm officially done. i shall blown everything away. i never blamed on -U- of what happen to us. i still can't figure what's on -U-'s mind. but i know there is something. i know -U- thinking of something! one thing that i realised is that, -U- that i know few months ago is much different of -U- that i've confessed on last December (i mean after that confession). i guess it's all coming back to me - for being too rush on everything. but still relieved (even i have loaddss of things to say to him last night!) at least, i dare to tell him that i'm in LOVE with him before.

now, -U- hardly to reply my SMS & even on !YM. don't that tell me something?

it's hard. it's sad. but i have to move on. i know i suppose to continue to be friends with -U- but he seems not interested to continue even as a friend either. maybe -U-'ve been thinking that if -U- proceed to be friends with me, -U- scared that i still put on hope (which sometimes i did but it's just fade away because i know i can't).

i dunno why tears just simply my dear best friend when thought back of what happen to us, what happen to -U-. but i don't want to give any pressure on -U-. just pray for the best of -U-. hope -U- have a great life ahead... yeah~ without me searching, SMS-ing, !YM-ing -U- anymore. at least, i'm no longer annoyed to -U-.

i guess, i really need to release all the things that cracking ma' head in 4days time. works, love life, and myself. not here, but 'there'. even i wish that -U- can send me to the airport that night. but it's simply another dream that i wish i had one.

~aNiSr~