A N I S 97

i knew this name while i was in Aussie. i saw one damn-nice Adidas t-shirt with her name on it and it looks so classy~

and i smell this - with combination of white rose, peony and freesia. it's just catch my scent on the spot.

Limited Edition Sheer Stella McCartney

~aNiSr~

i miss him~

miss his jokes

miss his sarcasm

miss his know-everything

miss his laugh

so much~

does he feel the same~ guess not~ ;"( oh! by the way, he's In Relationship - again~

~aNiSr~

Yeay! it's the day~

new pay slip

new salary

but only can feel new $$$ tomorrow ;p

next ?

Redeem Roxy Birthday Voucher! ~ weeeeeeeeeeee~


~aNiSr~

GF?

good!

take care of her~

be nice~

share the happy story ?

naaaahhh~ what for?

you know where to find me when you need me, especially when you are in trouble~

aight?

* i wonder why i've been surrounded by people who always VERY HESITATE to share when they are happy with someone else (High School BFF is exceptional, die bukan tak btau, aku yg blur~ :P)


miss her?

miss you?

ahahhaha~

so?

haih~

emo nemo la you ni Anis :P that's the fav line from Mr.Girls-Must-Fall-In-Love dedicated to me.

it's really hard to be a GOOD friend aight? it is~ i mean out there~ hard to them~ not for me~

~aNiSr~

i know i've made him feel so pissed even i don't which part that really burst him off

he dare to say that i always made him so mad, i always make fun of him

even till today, i don't know why i still be so patient and always tolerate with his attitude

but did i tell him, the REAL thing that really pissed me ( + others) off and i NEVER mentioned about it because i CARE his sensitivity and emotions?

explanation? he don't bother by the way

because to him, i'm the one, who ALWAYS made him pissed off, never care his emotions, i'm the one who literally DESPICABLE him

but i wonder why he never dare to ask why i treated him so well indeed even he always made me + OTHERs pissed off and he didn't realize about it or he couldn't care at all


~aNiSr~

this few days, i'm like~ BLUR. totally~

since last week especially on weekend.

first weekend without my High School BFF.

i've planned to watch movie or window shopping ~ at least. but turned out, Miss Butterfly went to Langkawi, Mr.Go-Carter's GF also went back to JB, Mr. Sweet Talker with his football tourny. and am totally lost! i dunno what to do~ who else am gonna called up for lepaking haih~

yesterday, i had LONGGGGGGGGGG chat with High School BFF. even though terputus kejap-kejap sbb bateri gueh 2-2 phones agak tenat. and in middle of the nite, she sms me with sangat sedih punye ucapan~ :(( and i called her back straight away~ wohoooo~ am you know what? am totally BLUR till i know she mentioned that SHE'S IN LOVE! and the best part is, i don't have any comment on 1st day she mentioned about it. she told me last week. but my response? 'err~oh~ ok~' hahahahah~ sangat lah pelik sahabat baik ku itu dengan comment saye tu. till yesterday, i shouted at her, dengan response dengan sangat tidak mempercayainya. 'haa~ tu la respon yang aku tunggu dari ko, jerit camtu, terkejut camtu. ini idak, hari tu aku cite, ko cam hmmm... ohh~ ok..hmmm~' thihihi~ maaf cik! :"> so can you imagine, how blur am i? haih~

anyway am SO HAPPY for her! and by the way, told her so many things that i couldn't dare to tell anyone else. and am relieved. even kinda sad on both of us are now quite a distance but still contactable. haih~ kalau salah sorang pi oversea, tak tau la cemane~ huhuuh~ kalah orang berchenta ni :P

yesterday, went out with Miss Schomi and she also noticed that i'm not being myself ' ko ni tak ape-ape ke? cam lain je aku tgk, cam blur semacam je? ko ok ke?' haih~ sangat nampak kah? toksah kan orang lain, even 'closest' keep on calling me and texted me asking the same. 'Anis ok ke ni?' in fact, she came to my office and passed her boss's resume to me. and when i met her, i though of giving her something but i don't know what. mule la excited cik'closest' saye tu~ then, i called her, but then tak tau nak cakap ape, letak phone. then after a while, called balik, tak tau nak cakap ape, then, suddenly i mentioned 'THE NAME' to her and asking her bla~bla~ and then i don't know what to say about 'THE NAME'. huhuhuh~ haalaaamaakkk~ teruk cenggini~ saye masih tercari-cari mengapa tetapi rasenye saye dah tau kot kenapa saye blur. and High School BFF knew about it and agreed! part of it , because of her, but the biggest part of it, errrr~:"> saye sendiri tak sangke saye telah meluahkannya~ to High School BFF lerrr~ ngeeeeeeee~

she understand, truly agree why~

hope will recover soon from this desease~ BLUR +++ (plus plus plus~) :D


~aNiSr~

i realize that there are silent readers out there

that keeping track of what i did, what am doing, and my plans for future

they might be wondering of how am getting through my life with or without them

and some of them just seeking of AN answer

which they keep on looking, silently

there are some parts that they have to understand that it is not about telling the truth will definitely change everything but things that lies underneath it

it is complicated

but to those who have the right courage will dare enough to discover between the lines

and fair enough that there is also some people who just let it go, couldn't bother and keep on going with their ego

as for them they really sure that they definitely gonna find the perfect one even there isn't one

even sometimes i missed some things, some people very much even they intentionally or unintentionally hurt me

deep inside, long time enough

too early for an apology?

am i in a right lane?

there is always a reason behind a drama

even we made up the script


~aNiSr~

i am all alone

i hate when comes to one part where nobody will be there for you

for hangout

for gossips

for anything

i never envy on what people have but i don't

because i believe that sooner or later that i'm gonna own it

it is just bad when we are trying so hard to understand and learn about other people

but it is just a burden for them to at least have a lil' tiny understanding towards us

when i thought that people really knows you

but at that moment, they actually avoiding you because they don't want to get to know you deeper

it's just a mess when they try to get back the understanding, gain back the trust

and truly enough, when you lose it, it is just long way to go to get it back


~aNiSr~