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~aNiSr~

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~aNiSr~

i feeellll goooddd~ tenenenenee~~~ :D

might be the effect of sugar level contained in 2 Strawberry Sundae today during my very-calm -lunch-hour. weehuuu~

can't manage to get another one tonite. so carry forward tomorrow then! :D

*Miss -U-*

~aNiSr~

P i s c e s
Feb 19 - March 20

PISCES MAN

He is very emotional and always allow himself to be very emotional. He can have a good night sleep and be in a good mood, and less than few hours at work he can be very moody. He does not understand things or try to understand things easily (lembab tahap spender bak kate -U- :P). If you notice him carefully, you will notice what kind of moods he is in.

He is a thinker and able to do well at work and always succeed. His normal gestures mean he always look at other people faults, but he will not talk about it. He has the ability to know your thought and able to tell you what you are thinking about. (ooOOo yeah?!! :D)

He can mostly memorize all his anger, his loves. They are his important secrets and he will keep them to himself and will never let you know. (thihihi~is it?) He is not a very ambition man and careless about his position in society. Wealth does not drawn his attention, because he is not greedy man and as well he thinks money is not something that will last. He could be very careless about his future. He does not like to fight against all odds, but instead following the stream and make life easier. Sometimes because he likes to take an easy path, which cause him very unsteady future.
He is kind and slightly lazy, but it is his cute character. (this is so true! i can see that CLEARLY!) He hates rules and regulations (yeyearrghhh!). He will never look down on people. (like u said :D) He is a polite guy (so right! :P but sometimes not really :D) and can be very aggressive when he is mad. (wohhooo~ yeah!) He loves to think that he lives in a beautiful world and surround by nice people, (like who?hahaha~) so if he finds his world is cruel and not what he expects, he will live in his world instead.
His other charm is that he is a funny guy, and it is his real weapon. (wohooo~yup!) He can tease you and yet make it looks like one of his joke. Even when he is sad, he still has that funny face, so you could hardly tell if he is mad or depress. (yeah! till u tell me or i asked you) He likes to hide his feeling and help other people especially those who need friend or lonely. (~:">)

He will be everything that you want and everything you do not want. (errrr~) He has a chance to make it as much as a chance to fail. He can determine to make it work and can do it well, except he tends to lost his energy with other important things, that's how he miss many of his good opportunity. (what say you? :>)

He can be happy and content by himself. What he think is important is not "Love" ,but firm status and stability. He has plenty of love for you. (really? i hope :">)

He is a good speaker, as much as he is a good listener. (this is verrrryyy the true :-*) When he is with you, he wants to be happy. (thihihi!~) He understand his partner's emotional. He likes to take a long rest and sometimes being alone. If he needs to be alone, try not to disturb him. (oh ok~)

He is a sensitive, quiet, shy and easily hurt. (halalalla~really?) He wants to feel worthy. (that's what am doing now! :">) He can be mad and noisy, but once he calm down, he will be that happy person again. He is not a jealous or possessive guy, and if he feels jealous he will hide it. (eehhehe~nahh~is that possible? i should try :P) He has many friends of both sex, and he care about his friends. (oh! i'm touched! :">) He likes to have lots of friends, (we are same-same la -U-) so you can not get jealous or else you will loose him. (halllaammakkk~ okeh okeh! :D) He likes beautiful things, so if a pretty woman walk by he will look ,so do not get mad at him knowing this fact. ( thihiih~i don't mind that. seriously!)

When he is lonely or feeling sad, be close to comfort him. (trying to but fail i guess :'() He does not like to take advice,so if you want him to listen or to follow your advice, you have to act as a good sample for him first. (baik!) He likes a cheery and a smart woman. (cheery tu maybe but smart? errr~only -U- can determine :">) If you treat him like he is your special person, then he will be that special person for you. (oopss~ really? doubt it la :'() He will trust you if he is in love, but try not to over doing it and spoil him too much. You have to know yourself worth all the time too. (baikkkkkkkkkkkkk! :">)

*hugs*

C a n c e r
June 22 - July 22

CANCER WOMAN
When she is in love, she will act both ways. First, Shy and polite trembling to be near you. (~:">~:">~:">) Second, Attach to you like glue and trying to be with you all the times. (errrr~ thihiihi~ not really but :">) She will try to go home with you after work, or have every lunch with you. (ye saye! :"> but not like the Glue UHU Gajah tu okeh? :P) It is O.K. if you like her too, but if is is not the case, you will feel very uncomfortable. (wohhooo~:P)

She hates to be talked about or gossiped by someone else. If she knows she will be very hurt. (hahlalallaala :'( better tell straight on the face please!) In nature she is a shy type, except she has been influenced by some other Zodiac. She is not a brave or daring type, (errrr~doubt bout that~ depends i guess! :D) so if you like her then you better be the one who start first. She will not accept her true feeling, so if you like here you better tell her first. (yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! mengerti please? :">)
She is like a musical note always change in tunes, so one minute she can be funny and cheerful, and one minute she can be sad and depress. (puuffff~ straight to my face please! ahahha!) Other people may think of her as "Over-acting", or "Over-reacting". (overweight? yup! ahahahha!)
When she is depress, she will go out and look for things to make it up. (yup! always seeking a dear one! :">) She loves money, (shopaholic me!) and thinks of having "Money" as "happy" (weeeeeeeee~), not as "God" (of course la! giler ke hape~). She will not look down at you if you do not have a lot of money (double damn true!), but she will help you make money, save money (errrr~part of it yeah, part of it - doubt! lagi menggalakkan shopping tu ade :P). She is not an extravagant person and sometimes will tell you not to buy her expensive and not useful gift. (~:">)

She is the type who enjoy a long and quiet walk. (romantic huh! i loiikkeee~) Cancer woman also influenced by the "moon", so under the moon light she will be fascinating woman. (errr~ ya ka? seriously i don't know!)

She has a constant fear for many things. She fear of not being smart enough, not pretty enough. (yeeee~ truly madly deeply!:'() Even if she is not fat, she will not be satisfy. (now am fat, lagilah! adoiii~) Assuring her of her look would help, because she can change mood 4 times a day. (doesn't mean i'm moody ok? sometimes mood cracker =p)

She is not stingy, but you will not surprise if you see she collecting old or broken junks. (ahahahah! should ask my 'closest' then!) She sees that everything are useful to her. She will find a way to re-use it again some day. She is not a jealous type,but possessive. (kachinnnggg! :D)

The best part of her is that she will sacrifice everything for her love one with no limit. (shooootttt! damn damn damn true! aiseh~) Don't leave her in times of troubles, she will never forget it. (errrr~ without fail) She is not a weak type, even she looks like one, Example if you argue with her, she might cry her heart out. Once you left, she will wipe her tears and start clean up her apartment normally. (kapooffff~ straight to my face again!)

She is a very careful mother and will look after her kids every steps of the way. (you should marry me first then! ahahahah~) If she is a mother of your children, you are at ease, but if she is your mother in law, you are in pain. (naaahhh~ can see from my 'closests') Not to worry, this type of mother in law will not let her own daughter being an "Old mate". (yup!true~kamceng okeh? ;))

She could be moody and argue with you in many little things like many women, but she always wait and want to take care of you. (ye, saye!) If you argue with her and disappear a few days, she will be waiting for you, but not for long O.K. (wanna give a try? :>) This kind of testing is risky, try not to do it. (lalalalla~)
The Cancer woman need 2 things to be happy which are "Work" and "Love". She can be live in a dusty house, but she can not live in that same house with no Love. (soooooOoOOooOOOOooo true! not afraid of spreading the LOVE aight!)

*kisses*

~so can Mr Ikan and Miss Ketam be together? =p

~aNiSr~

yeay! i had 2 Strawberry Sundae today~ wehuuuuuuuuuuu~ (but without the stars lol =D) am so Satisfied to the Max! and thinking of having another one tonite~ errrr~ :P lalalallalala~

workwise : today feel excited~manage to settle some issues. lalalallala~

it's a happy day! called BFF on the way back home.... weeee~ always made my day~we have plans together and hope both of us can make it. lalalalalalala~

~aNiSr~

i wanna watch soccer (Malaysian call it football kan? thihihi~ ok la better use football in this case! :P)

i went to MAXIS On the Ball- The Stadium Football Experience at The Amphitheather, Sunway Lagoon on 16th December. ( i think i was there when i watched 98 Degress concert last time!)weeeeeeeeeehuuuuuuuuuuu!!!

Man U vs Liverpool! i'm hype! the fans wereeee SUPERB! especially Liverpool's! (i like the Man U black jersey though! classy! :D) i wanna watch again. in fact some of my colleagues were there too. and the next day, he asked me ' hai, balik awal smalam? :D' thihihi~ i wanted to continue to watch next game ( 'Celsi' & 'Asenel' :P) but then, waktu Cinderella dah tiba and in fact, i'm not a big fan of 'Celsi' :P (but lil bit to 'Asenel' :D tu pon sbb anak sedare haku punye pasal :D)

but for me, Man U & Liverpool game that night was AWESOME! tu pon ade orang kate ' biase je U game tu' weehuu~ really? maybe too much of watching 'SUPERB MALAYSIAN TEAM' i guess. ahhahaha~ not really :P i seldom watched football anyway. but that night?!! drive me crazy and now am so hype to watch next big game. even now i ask around my colleague 'bile lagi ade next game' my colleague even dah pandai sengih-sengih & geleng kepale, terkejut kot tgk si Anis ni semangat tengok bola. anyway, -U- has promised to bring to the next game but no high hope ok Cik Anis? lalaalla~ eventhough am not excellent of giving the comment ala ala sports commentator, but i do know when to shout and curse during the game ok? ahahaha! enough la kan? :P

Man U vs Arsenal? perrghhhh! mmg perang besar la haku dan anak sedare ku itu! :P

or Man U vs Chelsea?

alaaaa haku ni asalkan Man U je jalan ~ :P and as long am having fun! ( which i do know! :D)

Glory, Glory Man United!

'Glory, Glory. Man United,

'Glory, Glory. Man United,

'Glory, Glory. Man United,

And the reds go marching up, up, up...

(repeat!)

United Chants

Ryan Giggs, Ryan Giggs, running down the wing,

Ryan Giggs, Ryan Giggs, running down the wing,

Loved by the reds, feared by the blues,

Ryan Giggs, Ryan Giggs, Ryan Giggs,

We Love United, We Do!

We Love United, We Do!

We Love United, We Do!

ooohhh - United We Love You!

~aNiSr~

yummmy! after watching Qurban session at surau, me and 'closests' suddenly felt 'sedapnye kalau dapat McFlurry ke sundae ni' thihihi~ and my 'closest' just simply make a turn to McD at MRR2. (i like that place, sweet! :P) drive thru and order sumenye dessert semata-mata eventhough the Breakfast Menu still on the board :D i ate that Strawberry Sundae dengan penuh perasaan.

feeling like wanna get another one tonite! weeeeeeeeeeeeee~ eating Strawberry Sundae and lift up my car boot and sit at the back while watching the stars! i always dream to do that. care to accompany me? i wish...

~aNiSr~

1.17am - sleep with a BIG smile...


~aNiSr~

it's 12.34am and i still can't manage to sleep. i wanted to but feeling of waiting for something. waiting for? i really dunno. haih~ i shall go to bed now! force myself to be in REM mode~

'SuperFastGoodFriend' is in good mood today. but hey~ no more about 'SuperFastGoodFriend' as i already move on! but he came at right time. Thank God nothing change! feewwww~

~aNiSr~

suddenly addicted of listening to Nick Lachey's. compiling back all his single album!

Fall In Love

I don't know what it is tonight
Your smile, your eyes, yeah
Even in a candlelight
You shine so bright
And you're so beautiful
More beautiful than you've ever been
I catch my breath
And fall in love again

I can't imagine where I'll be without you with me
I need you every day more than words can say
I want you in the life
And for all the life
This night will never end
You take my hand
And I fall in love again

Nothing short of a miracle
could've brought you here to me
When I'm with you
Heaven's all I see
All I see

Caught up in ever touch
I feel the rush of this moment back when we're here
Each time we kiss
I fall in love again
I can't resist
I fall in love again



This I Swear

You're there by my side
In every way
I know that you would not forsake me
I give you my life
Would not think twice
Your love is all I need believe me

I may not say it quite as much as I should
When I say I love you darling that means for good
So open up your heart and let me in

And I will love you 'til forever
Until death do us part we'll be together
So take my hand and hold on tight
And we'll get there
This I swear

I'm wondering how I ever got by
Without you in my life to guide me
Where ever I go the one thing that's true
Is everything I do I do for you

I may not say it half as much as I should
When I say I love you darling that means for good
So open up your heart and let me in
And I will love you 'til forever
Until death do us part we'll be together
So take my hand and hold on tight
And we'll get there
This I swear

So whenever you get weary
Just reach out for me
I'll never let you down my love

And I will love you 'til forever
Until death do us part we'll be together
So take my hand and hold on tight
And we'll get there

And I will love you 'til forever
Until death do us part we'll be together
So take my hand and hold on tight
And we'll get there
Ohh we'll get there
This I swear


I Can't Hate You Anymore

An empty room can be so deafening,
The silence makes you wanna scream,
It drives you crazy.
I chased away the shadows of your name,
And burned the picture in a frame,
But it couldn't save me.

And how could we quit something we never even tried,
Well you still can't tell me why.

We built it up,
To watch it fall.
Like we meant nothing at all.
I gave and gave the best of me,
But couldn't give you what you need.
You walked away,
You stole my life,
Just to find what you're looking for.
But no matter how I try,
I can't hate you anymore.
...I can't hate you anymore.

You're not the person that you used to be,
The one I want who wanted me,
And that's a shame but,
There's only so many tears that you can cry.
Before it drains the light right from your eyes,
And I can't go on that way.
And so I'm letting go of everything we were,
It doesn't mean it doesn't hurt.

We built it up,
To watch it fall.
Like we meant nothing at all.
I gave and gave the best of me,
But couldn't give you what you need.
You walked away,
You stole my life,
Just to find what you're looking for.
But no matter how I try,
I can't hate you anymore.

Sometimes you hold so tight,
It slips right through your hands.
Will I ever understand?

We built it up,
To watch it fall.
Like we meant nothing at all.
I gave and gave the best of me,
But couldn't give you what you need.
You walked away,
You stole my life,
Just to find what you're looking for.
But no matter how I try,
I can't hate you anymore

by : Nick Lachey

~aNiSr~

do we have to state any reason(s) why we fall in love with someone?

what i believe is - i never scare to show my love towards -U- to anybody...


~aNiSr~

Sometimes people are so easy to give out trust

Sometime people are so easy to take back that trust

Sometimes people are so easy to fall in love

Sometimes people are so easy to be dissapointed

Sometimes people are so easy to get away

Sometimes people are so easy to forget

Sometimes people are so easy to forgive

Sometimes people are so easy to give another chance

Sometimes people are so easy to leave

Sometimes people are so easy to understand that love is painful

Sometimes people are so easy to understand why they fall in love

Sometimes people are so easy to states many reasons why they fall in love

Sometimes people are so hard to believe that everything is easy

~aNiSr~

What's Left Of Me

Watch my life,
Pass me by,
In the rear view mirror
Pictures frozen in time
Are becoming clearer
I don't wanna waste another day
Stuck in the shadow of my mistakes

Yeah...

Cause I want you,
And I feel you,
Crawling underneath my skin
Like a hunger,
Like a burning,
To find a place I've never been
Now I'm broken,
And I'm faded,
I'm half the man I thought I would be:
But you can have what's left of me

I've been dying inside,
Little by little,
No where to go,
But going out of my mind
In endless circles,
Running from my self until,
You gave me a reason for standing still

It's falling faster,
Barely breathing,
Give me something,
To believe in
Tell me: It's not all in my head

Take what's left
Of this man
Make me whole
Once again

I've been dying inside you see
I'm going out of my mind
Out of my mind
I'm just running in circles all the time
Will you take what's left
Will you take what's left
Will you take what's left of me?
Just running in circles in my mind
Will you take what's left
Will you take what's left
Will you take what's left of me?

By : Nick Lachey

~aNiSr~

Someday, Someway, Somehow

I try to pull myself together,
One lie, tore us apart.
We left so many words unspoken.
You walked away with my heart,
And I cried, I cried.
Heaven knows how much I cried.
Could you find the strength within you,
To give me one more try.

If I called you, would you believe what I had to say,
And if I saw you, would you, turn and run away.
If I had my way girl, you'd be with me right now.
Someday, someway, somehow.
Someday, someway, somehow.

I thought that I could go on without you.
Guess what? I was so wrong,
And I realized how much I really love you,
And it's been far too long.
I know you cried, I know you cried.
Heaven knows how much you cried.
But can you find the strength within you,
To give me one more try.

If I called you, would you believe what I had to say,
And if I saw you, would you, turn and run away.
If I had my way girl, you'd be with me right now.
Someday, someway, somehow.
Someday, someway, somehow.

So come on, don't I get my one mistake.
Let's forget about yesterday for tomorrow,
I know we've found what's at the end of the rainbow,
And it's meant to be, it's meant to be,

If I called you, would you believe what I had to say,
And if I saw you, would you, turn and run away.
If I had my way girl, you'd be with me right now.
Someday, someway, somehow.
Someday, someway, somehow.

Someday, someway, somehow.

By Brian McKnight

~aNiSr~

i should say it's a Wavy Day today. my feelings i mean. early in the morning, got 'continuous' support from colleague's hubby on continuing the 'relationship' issue which makes me so hype at that point of time. then, suddenly, i thought my dear BFF! called him and had a 20-minutes-consultation :p he was so dissapointed of what happen. but am glad. i told everything which i can't tell anyone else. and he understand. i felt so relieved (again!). TQ dear!

from now on, let it be.

am so glad that i'm surrounded by people that always supporting me! and while driving back home, i suddenly have thought of everything and my feelings since then, PLAIN & NEUTRAL.

and my love towards -U- become deeper & deeper eventhough i know it would never be the same again and i might have to 'restart' all over again...

~aNiSr~

Before i go to bed, i made up my mind. on my own. all by myself. i think i know by now and you should.

Just keep lil' bit for yourself. You've done your part. Let him do his.

Start new fresh day...

~aNiSr~

Sorry for not trusting you as i don' have the trust on myself neither.

Sorry for being so negative on everything.

Sorry for always making assumption before asking the truth.

Sorry for not being a good friend as i turn it complicated when i fall in love with you.

Sorry -U-!

~aNiSr~

Learn on accepting things that not belongs to you

Learn on accepting other peoples reaction on you

Learn on accepting people who rejects you

Learn on controlling of giving your heart away

Learn on controlling your emotions

Learn on how to react to people who fools around you

Learn on how to get off from people that never (ever) try to respect you

Learn on everything. Don't be afraid!

~aNiSr~

that was my expression when i saw his reply. 'baju ujan i ilang'. errrrr~ seriously i dunno how to react! yeah! that's it~ solve the 'xde mood' issue.

dear reader,

should @ shouldn't i accept that reason? wuhhuuu~ i feel like laughing eventhough thinking of something else ( thanks to 'closest' for drafting out my azam for 2008 - jgn pk negatif! thihihi~ ) c'mon, maybe seriously he has sentimental value on the 'baju ujan'? u never knew! :D

last time was 'motor semput2' with same method - late reply. ahhahahaha! now when compiling back, mmg haku gelak besar bile pk balik! i think u guys know what am thinking now. yeah! me thought of same thing. but the time will come. will share with u soon! :P

~aNiSr~

errr~ did i mention anything on previous posts that make him 'xde mood'? haih~ wish he can tell me... but if do, errrrr~ :'(

:*HUGS :*

~aNiSr~

Today, i would say a "KELEGAAN' day as my new 'baby' @ station has open officially. Selling her first drop of fuel bout late evening. was there to witness her first customer drove in. yeah! glad but somehow still lots of things to follow up and settle.

Suppose to celebrate and share this happy day with someone but errr~ i guess not today. 'xde mood'. but hey~ everybody has bad day aight? including me. so i understand. dun worry! Take Care -U-!

aNiSr~

• cranky



• moody



• down



• frust



• emotional

why? coz people hard to show their LOVE. but why should they spread the love towards someone who they actually not in love to? so stop aiming high!

*it's only 9.55pm but am going to bed!

~aNiSr~

am listening to NeYo - So Sick & his ex-GF version.

thought back :

why i confronted him? the consequences?

why he never mention anything about it?

why he gave those reasons?

why he mentioned that he's not good enough? or it's actually me that not good enough for him?

why he mentioned about those level? or is it me that can't reach his level?

does he has inferior in himself?

does he really mean what he said?

does he really love me like i expected?

or am i putting too much expectation on him? or maybe on myself?

or it's just a lame reasons to escape from the relationship?

or it's just both of us are not ready for any commitment?

so what are we now?

friends?

no friends?

no relationship?

no for everything?

get off @ get away?

why he always have plans but not for me?

why if he has plans, but never though of sharing with me?

or is it me that have always so many reasons to get away?

so many reasons to get away from his plans?

or it's just me who just not suitable for him?

or am i feeling so scared of losing him as a friend?

or did i took a wrong move to let out my feeling towards him?

too many questions in my mind and i feel that we did not meet the conclusion at the end.

now i'm sound like a pyschopath don't u think? yeah! when we IN LOVE, you gonna be crazier than a psycopath!

simple step : just let him think. give him time. enough said! (eventhough miss him A LOT!)

~aNiSr~

just hate this feeling! jealousy is all over me now. while surfing his page, kinda turn me off when arrrghhh~ i dunno! people always says that when you are feeling jealous on a guy, it means that you don't trust him. errr~ i've heard bout that. but in this case, maybe i do! i do have lil tiny hesitate about him but it doesn't strike me so much. but when i saw those photos, i'm kinda can't think straight now! but hey~ c'mon Anis, he's only a FRIEND. he only treats you as a friend. i think i need give him ENOUGH space to breath. kind of overwhelming weekend i should say. from Friday till Sunday. thoses confrontation SMSes.

like i said, when you doesn's seems giving any significant impact in his life, it just doesn't work out. sooner or later, he's gonna go away like the wind blows.

that is why i don't receive any SMS from him today! and in fact, he never mention about outing together or haih~ i dunno.

down again...

~aNiSr~

managed to get this info from e-mail which i subscribed to a newsletter. good info to share!

The power of thought

“Stress has a lot to do with the way we think about what’s happening around us,” according to Julie Nelligan, Ph.D., a psychologist at Oregon Health & Science University in Portland. “If the holidays are synonymous with family guilt or not having enough time, money or whatever, you’ll probably feel stressed.”

Feeling overwhelmed is no fun. But if your skin erupts or your joints flare as well, holidays can be pretty grim. To combat holiday pressures, Dr. Nelligan recommends four simple guidelines:

1. Know what stresses you. Is it particular people, travel, obligations or maybe finances? Knowing the triggers for your own stress will help you manage them. Then you can focus on minimizing your exposure to them. (1st thing to do is get to know what triggers u!)



2. Know how you respond to stress. When you feel pressured, do you get overly emotional, overeat, skip meals, focus on sweets, sleep poorly, smoke more or get cranky? Learn to recognize your own personal “stress signals.” Your goal is to catch them early, before you begin to feel too strained. (respond? say it out! to anybody that feels related or a listener)



3. Make small adjustments to regain control. Once your behavior signals that you are stressed, make small changes. Get more sleep or take a nap during the day. Drink more water and less caffeine. Avoid alcohol and smoking. (sleep is the best medicine! lalalalla~ sleep always help in reducing stress. yes! 110% agree!)



4. Be good to yourself. Our focus on others is a major component of holiday stress, according to Dr. Nelligan. December is often crammed with activities. All the shopping, bright lights and parties can be fun, but take time to recharge. Give yourself the gift of quiet time, as a break between all the activities. (shopping! but now window shopping ONLY! :P)