A N I S 97

Just came back from stations.

Went out from hommie sharp at 7.40pm. All the way, i felt uneasy, felt uncomfortable. Something bothering me but still can't manage to find out why. Just thought that, will be any robbery at stations that i'm gonna visit then? haih~ but then when i received 'the call' at 8.56pm, then, the feeling just settled down. i knew something was wrong somewhere. He just lose his beloved father @ 7.45pm @ Muar Hospital. Lucky for him that he managed to go back to Muar this morning and he's doing all the necessary. Lucky to have a son like him. VERY LUCKY! I really wished that i can be there for him & his 'closests'. His 'closest' just smsed me @ 10.00 pm and i just received a call from his other 'closest' informed the sad news. and my heart felt so crashed out now. feeling that i should be there as his friend.

And seriously, i felt so guilty, sad and uneasy as it always be my dream to meet his beloved father. but, yet we didn't get the chance to meet. and now, it's just a memory and lucky me that i saved his father's photo in my desktop. wished that one day that i can meet him in person. but, now...

But am so glad that he & his 'closests' were really calm to accept the sad news. And they are accepting the fact that their beloved father leave them forever.

But i'm sure that there won't be regret feelings of losing their beloved father as they were always by his side during his sickness and hard moment. Lucky him to have great sons & daughters. They've been raised tremendously.

I shall say that when we are connected, there must be gut feelings that something happen to someone. i remembered back when my High-School-BFF lost her beloved father few years back, that morning, when i heard my hommie phone rang, suddenly i thought of her & my heart started pounding really fast. felt uneasy, restless and when i picked the phone, true enough that my High-School clan informed the sad news.

I believed in gut feelings and most of times, it does guide me to somewhere - to be extra careful, to be in low tone during hype moment (felt like losing the edge - you know what i mean~) , to be always be on the ground.