A N I S 97

yesterday 'closest' told me - 'when it's over, it's over'~ haih~

i know lately 'closest' behave and think differently right after the Super-Fast-Good-Friend made 'the' decision and turn away so sudden made her i dunno~ frustrated? who doesn't aight? seems now, 'closest' only want somebody who really SERIOUS with me. not the one who wants to play around or just hang out friend-alike type relationship. yes, you may making new friends, but if they doesn't seems so serioous bout OUR future, then, please let go & don'w waste time. no time for fun-hang-around kind of relationship. no more few years relationship. but arrgghhh!!!!!!! i dunno.

sometimes i felt that i just don't want to settle down after 'not successful' relationship with used-to-be-another half. i used to tell 'closest' that 'kalau tak de rezeki, takde pape dgn die, malas dah nak pk' means :

1) not getting married at all
2) anybody who masuk minang, terima je without have a longgggg thoughts

but then, when munculnya pelangi selepas hujan :P when i knew that 'someone' is ready outhere to settle down, i'm like heyyyy~ i want i want! =p seriously when i 1st saw Super-Fast-Good-Friend's blog, and read about Super-Fast-Good-Friend's plan to settle down ASAP :D, i'm so happy and thankful. but then, how am i going to get to know Super-Fast-Good-Friend? is he willing to accept me the way i am? then, when we had so much FUN together, i've thought ' jgn excited sgt, nanti tak jadi, kau merana Anis' huhuuhuh~ and yeah! it happened though. this is what people say,'takde jodoh, kita tak boleh paksa orang'

better he said it now, instead of time tunang ke nikah ke, die cabut lari ke? sms tak jadi datang ke kan? and kebetulan when he smsed me that time, there were few cases about kawen @ tunang tak jadi main send sms je. huhuhuuh~ so coincidence. but hey~ look it at bright side aight? byk petunjuk tapi tak paham paham lagi. haih~ Anis ~ Anis lallalalala~

thinking so many things today! from used-to-be-another-half, Super-Fast-Good-Friend, 'closests', new job, future (work & personal), until what to do tonite~ aiyaaarkkkk~

i'm just in DILEMMA.

~aNiSr~