just let it out through tears. makes me feel relieved. but some people can't just accept that methodology. 'sket sket nangis, sket sket kuar air mata' but hey! read my lips - I DON'T CARE! it's just the way that i can released my tense out. this week, 2 times!
haih~ first at office. i just been hit by one story which been tell out straight to my face and the most interesting part is - in front of other people. i feel like quitting. which errr~ sangat rase confirm sangat ni. so i went to the 'right' person at the office and tell her everything - my thoughts, my feelings, 'the incident' , EVERYTHING! first thing that i mention to her that i want to quit. yup! seriously! i'm not good enough, not proactive enough, not enough of EVERYTHING. then she so worried about 'the incident', she just can't afford to ask my manager to sit in together with us. haih~ this is simply why i don't want to tell her! huwaaaaaaaaa~ but she found that i don't have any choice besides telling my manager. so, three of us! and i'm so not comfortable. but hey! it's for my own good. and even my manager told me that if that incident happen to her, she definitely feel the same way and in fact it's just hit her too! but she convince me to confront that 'B' and ask her what actually her point telling me that such thing. haih~
today! suddenly i feel tears just went down - again. why? felt so sad when he can't make it for tonite's AD (which i've expected the NO answer a long time anyway) i dunno why i just feel so emotional. like he said it's not his 1st time cancelling our plan together. but hey~ what to do. am not been so significant in his life though. am not so call the very important. just a FRIEND. so tell me Cik Anis, do you feel emotional if other friend(s) cancel your plan together? did you cry for that? errr~ can't remember ~:"> but this time? i don't know. kate dah expect kan? so why did you? arrgghhh~ i don't know.
~aNiSr~
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