A N I S 97

snapped! yeeah~ snapped on him last night. why? i just can't continue to read the archive about him and his 'history'. at first it's just ok but then when he started to tell what he did last time with her (good things la~ :P), and best part is, i can see that he still love her! errrr~ how should i say? jealousy mode arise? wuhhhuuuu~ this is bad! i just can't read (again!) and i just simply snapped and wished him a good night sleep. it's not because the birthday thingy, i felt that, errrr~ kuciwa! huhuuh~

worst part is, he read my blog too! shoot! now it's pretty hard for me to let out my feelings here. (hey! no wonder he knows everything! don't u think? argghhhh!) but wth aight? anis is shyless (refer to Anis's Dictionary) :P lalalalala~

my feeling towards him? i should say STRICTLY FRIENDS. (i have too!) negative me. but i can't stop comparing. not between my 'history' but his. before that? errrr~ arrgghhhh! i dunno. sangat jauh~ to wait for him to make that call? to make that move? to pop up the question? it's long way to go. but i know, he's a good friend. so i don't want to lose that trust.

i know that i did not manage to give A significant impact in his life. how do i know? instinct! i just knew it. when he can simply provide soooOOooOOOo many reasons not going out with you, no phone calls, less smses plus still putting 'their' picture together. i guess it's a big NO NO for me to continue how i felt towards him. but actually you did put away the 'feeling' part away before aight? long way before. but why now? bcoz, ko suke carik pasal cik anis. yeah! Anis the risk taker.lalalalala~

i simply hate this feeling! when you are not firm with something. this is not the first time that consultation turns to be emotions breakdown. why always like that one? :P first, consult and advice someone, then turn out to be me jatuh chenta with the 'client'. ahhahaha! Law of Attraction section 2(C) GILERRRR~ yeah!

before i turn into 'wild' and 'violent' with all the jealousy and moody and negative attitude plus plus, i should get away from him. it's for my own good and his too. because why? i don't want to lose him as a friend. don't repeat the same mistake.

~aNiSr~