A N I S 97

kinda spooky huh?

anyway, discovered that Used-To-Be-Another-Half getting engage this year. Alhamdulillah! i'm quite excited when i heard about it. and i just knew from Mr. Sunshine during our hang out last 2 weekends. that night instead, i !YMed buddy @ London just to clarify the 'breaking news' (which i shouldn't did it at first place! darn~!) and yet he sounded like the rumour kinda true. good! am happy for him. really! i dont wanna really share our conversation coz' it just boiled me up when i thought back of 'the' conversation. and in fact he wanna ask Used-To-Be-Another-Half to extend the invitation to me which sincerely, i don't give a damn whether he wanna invite me or not but if he still remember me as his friend, i don't mind to come to the Big Day at all! but no need to remind / ask him to invite me please! if he thinks that he wanna invite, it's up to him.

but today, suddenly he !YMed me thru SMS and asking whether the rumour was true. and i'm like what?!! last time, you used to tell that 'we as his friend are happy for him, bla~bla~' and now, you asking me? i was wondering why he mentioned those things last time. errrrgghhh~ and till i replied to him 'bla ~ bla~ and it's not my priority anymore' whoopssiee~ kinda harsh you think? i thought so.

but look, i tried so hard to be Used-To-Be-Another-Half good friend after not-being-together but yet it wasn't enough. even i tried to be nice, but maybe to some people, when it's over, definitely over even though he used to mention that we will never stop being friends. but hey~ people changed. but i really don't mind if he made the decision to just avoid me. but still we live on same ground, under same sky. and i will never get tired to be nice to people who willingly and sincerely being nice to me too. see~ is that easy?

and even your buddy support on his side, hey~ it's his choice. i don't even want anybody to be at any side, me @ him. no need! i just appreciate to those truly-BFFs who really care and really know the real me, to listen what ever craps that blurted out. in fact, till today only those people know why i took 'the' decision.

i don't want people thought that i'm being so cocky @ snobbish after not-being-together, but sometimes i need to stand up and protect some principles that some people wouldn't know that i do have limits to give in.

just to be in safe side, i am now happy on whatever decision i've made before. Alhamdulillah, Allah has guided me all the way and even now i'm blessed with Best Buddies, BFFs and Beloved Friends indeed.

i am now become more brave & stronger to stand on my own. Eventhough sometimes i tripped, there will be someone hold me tight and always be by my side all along...

~aNiSr~