A N I S 97

pheewww! weeeeeeee~ blackout in the office! ahhahah~ feel glad weh coz i'm in the middle of DRY discussion with colleague that errrr kinda 'not-into-it'. headed out for early lunch. weehhuuu! refer to the photo :P but now felt like errr wanna vomit la. too bad huh!
met another gorgoues HUNK! this one, wore blue, horizontal stripes shirts and he's real the 'hansemmmm' one i tell u. in the same lift, berlari anak-anak aku mengejar sbb nak same lift hhhhhaha~crazy me i know! thanks to my good-friend-in-the-office which always know i'm gonna turn upside down when see expat. hahahahah~ any COLOUR will do :P but wohooooo! i just like to see these expats as most of them are so call errrr~ very polished?. kinda of respect to Women. like, open the door for you, you (as the ladies) will enter the room first, bla bla bla. they will never fail to do that so far. doesn't mean that malaysian Men cannot do that la. heyyy! i wanna get married to Malaysia Man ok? no offence! but sometimes, they thought 'alahai, pepandai la kau bukak pintu sendiri, tak kesah la sape dulu masuk lift @ bilik, mengade-ngade plak' like i said - SOMETIMES! what say you? :D

i had these today!

front angle:D side angle :P

and this photo was taken while waiting for good-friend-in-the-office before headed for early lunch

can u spot me in the blackout? hahahahha!

~aNiSr~

i never believe on chain e-mail like this. sorry... :D sent by one of the GFC's .

Anda mungkin tidak mempercayainya, tapi merupakan nasihat yang baik untuk dibaca!
Anda mungkin mempelajari sesuatu jika membacanya!! !

PERTAMA.

Bersedekahlah kepada orang lain lebih daripada yang mereka perlukan dan lakukanlah dengan penuh kerelaan. (checked!)

KEDUA.

Kahwinilah lelaki / wanita yang gemar anda berbicara dengannya, kerana kemahiran berbicara antara satu dengan lain akan menjadi lebih penting pabila usia semakin tua. (he don't want, then how? llalalala~)

KETIGA.

Usahlah mempercayai segala perkara yang anda dengari. Berbelanjalah sekadar apa yang ada atau tidurlah seberapa lama yang anda perlu (i guess too much sleep still not good aight?)

KEEMPAT.

Apabila kamu berkata, " Aku Cinta Padamu", maka tunaikanlah. (used to be doing it, but errrr~ not succesful i guess?)

KELIMA.

Pabila mengatakan, "Maaf", tenunglah matanya. (woohooo~ from eye to the heart. cececece~)

KEENAM.

Bertunanglah sekurang-kurangnya enam bulan sebelum kamu diijabkabulkan. (errrr~ next?)

KETUJUH.

Percayailah cinta pandang pertama. (yup! we'll see)

KELAPAN.

Usah tertawakan impian orang lain. Manusia tanpa impian tidak memiliki apa-apa.(true!)

KESEMBILAN.

Cintailah seseorang dengan sepenuh hati dan penuh kasih sayang. Sungguhpun anda akan berasa seolah-olah diri anda tersiksa, tapi percayalah itulah satu-satunya untuk melengkapkan kehidupan ini. (woooohoooo! hey Anis! got that?)

KESEPULUH.

Jika berlaku perselisihan pendapat, bertengkarlah secara aman. Usahlah menyebut nama sesiapa ketika bertengkar. (no name mentioned please!)

KESEBELAS.

Usahlah menilai seseorang berdasarkan peribadi keluarga mereka.(never!)

KEDUABELAS.

Berbicaralah dengan tenang dan berfikirlah dengan pantas. (pantas can, tenang? errrr~)

KETIGABELAS.

Apabila seseorang bertanyakan satu soalan yang tidak anda gemari, lontarkanlah senyuman dan bertanyalah padanya,"Kenapa anda ingin tahu?" (heh!)

KEEMPATBELAS.

Ingatlah bahawa setiap cinta dan pencapaian yang besar akan melibatkan pengorbanan dan risiko yang besar. (yes! yes! yes!)

KELIMABELAS.

Ucaplah "Semoga anda diberkati" apabila mendengar seseorang bersin. (Alhamdulillah~)

KEENAMBELAS.

Apabila anda kerugian, janganlah jadi kurang ajar..(yup!)

KETUJUHBELAS.

Berpeganglah kepada tiga R:
1. Rasa hormat pada diri sendiri;
2. Rasa hormat kepada orang lain;
3. Rasa tanggungjawab terhadap semua tindakan anda
(hait!)

KELAPANBELAS.

Usahlah benarkan pertikaian yang sebesar hama merosakkan sebuah persahabatan yang besar. (hmmmm~ i think i've just created one already, too bad huh?)

KESEMBILANBELAS.

Apabila menyedari bahawa anda telah melakukan kesalahan, usahlah berlengah untuk perbetulkan kesalahan itu. (am trying!!!)

KEDUAPULUH.

Tersenyumlah ketika menjawab telefon. Pemanggil akan melihatnya daripada suara yang mereka dengar. (ye! saye setuju!)

KEDUAPULUH SATU

Adaketikanya anda perlu bersendirian. (definitely!)

Kini tibalah bahagian yang MENYERONOKKAN! (seronok ke? :-O)

Totem tantra ini telah dihantar kepada anda untuk kebaikan. Totem ini telah diedarkan ke seluruh dunia setakat ini sebanyak sepuluh kali. Kepercayaan orang China, dalam tempoh empat hari dari tarikh totem ini anda edarkan anda akan beroleh keuntungan.

Sila hantarkan salinan kepada mereka yang pada pendapat anda memerlukan kebaikan. Janganlah hantarkan wang kerana nilai takdir tidak boleh dijual beli.

Dilarang menyimpan pesanan ini.

Totem tantra ini hendaklah berada di tangan anda dalam tempoh 96 jam dari masa anda menerimanya.

Anda akan menerima suatu kejutan yang amat menyeronokkan.

Kebenarannya akan terserlah, walaupun anda tidak mempercayai perkara yang karut-marut. Edarkan maklumat ini sekurang-kurangnya kepada 5 orang dan anda akan merasai perubahan positif yang berlaku dalam hidup anda.

0-4 orang: Anda kanmengalami perubahan kehidupan yang kecil.

5-9 orang: Peningkatan perubahan kehidupan anda berada di tahap yang anda benar-benar ingini.

9-14 orang: Anda akan menerima sekurang-kurangnya 5 kejutan dalam setiap 3 minggu.

15 dan lebih orang: Taraf kehidupan anda akan meningkat dengan pantas

*post kat blog kirenye macam hantar salinan gak ke? haiippppp~

~aNiSr~

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!! i can't breath! inhale exhale!

1st thing, i woke up with all the M's - Miserable, Mix Up, Mak aihhh~ still thought bout him lol~ yup! tough one i know~ when i saw his last status on !YM, ' What Is Love?' i guess, he's in love with someone already. wohhooooo~ do i look i care? naddaaaa~ i just hate to be like this, but i did! whatever he thinks it's best for him, i'm happy for him too. alalallalaa~ c'mon anis! you can get rid of him!

2nd thing is, i feel so NERVOUSSSSSSSSSSS yup with lot of 'S'es there you see? feel so tense about tomorrow's presentation until i've met my mentor with his beloved husband during breakfast. yup! i just had only hot lemon tea ONLY for breakfast today. as usual, i've been thinking about this presentation all night long (eventhough my fingers are Non-Stop @ Continuosly typing for the blog :P).

yup!~COMPARING~ that's my first enemy when come to presentation. when i saw one of the team member presenting late evening yesterday, i'm like whoooaaa~ i'm srewed! totally srewed. so this morning, i had breakfast with my mentor and her hubby and they were like ' hey! this is so not you, we know you better! you can do it, why should you compare to those (errrr~ can't stated here-kinda of racist weh!) they are naturally talented in public speaking.' adoiii mak~

i always have these thought when comes to presentation or interviews :

• can't do it



• can't meet the expectations



• LACK of confidence (should be TOO LACK!)



• screwed!

because why? i always want to reach Top of The Best.i always ( and again this Wait For You is on the radio! heyyy~ i'm trying to get rid of him remember? but when i heard this song, sangat teringat ni!) anyway, back to the main issue. where am i? oh ya, i always wanted to reach higher. i will never satisfy with the word BEST but TOP of The Best suits me i guess. tu la! nyusahkan diri. last time, i always wondered why i always became so tense when coming to presentation & interviews. but then, on and on, i became to know that i want to be TOP of The Best (sounds funny but crazy too!) but hey~ i think it's inspires me in many ways. or else i will never take anything for serious :D

3rd thing of all! why i like working in American-based company? i got the BIG opportunity to look at GORGEOUS hunk with a big 'S' ahhahah ~ double meaning :P HUNKS la weh! pk apa? :P since yesterday, there were a group of American hunk and pretty ladies came to the office for'what-the-heck-training'. and there were i think 4 of them are wOOOohhoooOOoo hunk and phewwwiittt ladies! woooo~ seems our HQ in San Ramon really know how to choose the employees for the company lol! this morning, this BALD (yup, u read BALD there!),quite musclar and sangat polished American Hunk, wore a green t-shirt (hey same colour with me today! ada jodohkan kita? llalalalala~) wished a warmth 'Good Morning' i was like??? 'take me to the moon!' lalallalaa~ until my crazy colleague shouted at me 'hoi anis! aku tau nape ko nak lalu training room ni!!!' thihiih~ haihhhh~ there goes the capsul back to the earth. but they are kinda good looking guys, aren't they?' then few minutes later, the same guy wished again! me n good-friend-in-the office were likeeeee, we need CPR!!!!! we just simply sticked to the wall and trying sooOOoo hard to find some air. weeeeeeehhuuuuu!

these gorgeous hunks made my day....

Allah jadikan segala ciptaanNya sempurna, dan yang paling sempurna dan cantik kejadianNya adalah manusia. tak salah kita memuji kejadian Allah yang sempurna tu kan? :D

*oh, did i tell you that there will be A-Long-Line-Managers + Area Global Marketing Manager + GENERAL MANAGER as well in the room to see the presentation? Now, you know why i said gonna TOTALLY SCREWED UP!

~aNiSr~

ok! aku dah saket pinggang~better take the REAL sleep. and Miss Anis, your voice now sounds like Queen Latifah! it's 11.58pm~

What Is Love? you tell me from your point of view...

Love doesn't need a reason ;

If you can explain why you love someone, it's not love, it's like.

***pull up her Butterfly comforter and lights off!***

~aNiSr~

should be continuing doing this crap oopsssiee~ but wth! too busy blogging~ hey Miss Anis! this is your future! wanna permanent job and all those good incentives, bonuses plus plus $$$ or not?! bring back my Workaholic Virus pls!

~aNiSr~

am i look good with vertical stripes? even the experts said that ' Never wear vertical stripes if you are a Plus Size. wohhhooo~ but i think i look better with vertical stripes. or it's just me trying so hard to believe that 'gua dah kurus sket laaa?' 8=P

-taken @ Primula Beach Resort, T'ganu

- taken @ Room of Full Butterflies, Home 21st Oct 07

- taken @ KLIA Airport

-taken @ 'aiyarrkk forgot the place :P'

~aNiSr~

suddenly i found this photo~ am i happy? basically most of it is NERVOUSNESS! but i really remember that used to be the MOST MEMORABLE day in my life! :'p

~aNiSr~

• am i nuts?


• am i mad?


• am i crazy?

choose which one suits the best on me! selamat membaca anak-anak! and guess what? this is the 15th of the day~

thinking of some readers will silently whisper to the next door - here goes the Super Duper Crazy Girl that i've ever met on earth!

*Hey~ i want Superman t-shirt! too much watching Superman Returns on HBO~ now i feel like want to fly fly away! ngeeee~

~aNiSr~

haih! so crazy when thinking bout this story - told by good friend of mine away before Hari Raya.

giler ke hape? Ligamen putus! what? and it's done by a creature (sorry ladies!) called a Woman! because why? turns out she knew that her ex is actually only KESIAN to her because she just divorced with the husband. which means the whole relationship is based on kesian? goshhh! too bad for that guy but then, i think he should stand up like his 'thing' (u know what i mean ladies, when they turned on! ahahahah~) and tell straight to that girl that he only meant for friends. or means that u just 'nak kawan biasa je la'. just tell her la kan? the relationship quite a while. and the lady already thought that he's the One after this divorce thing! but at the end, she beat him up till errrr~ just read the title lol! that's so freaking crazy but hey, don't judge a widower wehhh! or don't take for granted on a Woman.

but when thinking back, it's back to IMAN. don't u think? if you have the basic and at least gist of Iman here and there, it won't turn out that bad aight? maybe you have to go back to beginning of the path. Doa! Pray hard to Allah! Sesungguhnya Allah akan memakbulkan doa orang yang teraniaya....

i don't want to turn out to be this creature. Jauhkan la! i think my good friend telling me this story for a good reason. she afraid i will be also turn out to be like this. haih! badan aku je besar, tapi hati kecik, Insya Allah tak jadi camni. lipas pon takot, nak belasah orang sampai ligamen putus? hahahaha~ but yeah~ u never know when you just feel LOST IT!

yeah~ i don't want to be in the middle of Kesian-Relationship too lol. Nak cakap nak, taknak cakap taknak kan? Might hurt but till the end of the day, u still have to accept it aight? U can't even go further eventhough you force them and choke them to the wall. My MMU's BFF always remind me, 'If he's for you, it's for you'

but to this widower, you go gurl! yaickkkksss~

~aNiSr~

yaickkkss~ it has been 4 days with this Complete-Set-of-Full-Viruses-in-the-Body and i noticed that i lose weight too! yup 4kg! 4 days without rice too. nobody will impress 'cause the double chin is still there! ahahhaha~ but wth, when Chinese folks came to me, and mentioned 'waaaa~manyak bagus ni.manyak ong! bukan sume olang dapat ini double chin' i'm like wheeewww~ don't want to believe all this Feng-Shui but at least make me feels happier i guess! :D

hahahaha~ but nevertheless, sometimes i remember when the used to-be-other-half who ALWAYS asked me to lose weight each and everytime we met. until at one point, i just said it out - 'find another girl please if you can't accept me the way i am!' but still, doesn't work. until i feel, ok that's it! i don't want to listen to this Kurus thing anymore please!

until i wanted to try this 'Magic Set' from the Super Fast Good Friend. hahahahha~ it works lol! but can't afford it during that time. so i gave up~ afraid that instead of slimming down but will end up with 'hutang keliling pinggang'. but of course i won't tell him that 'No Money' kan? end up, errrr~ tak menjadi pon! (konon!) haih~ :P but i did mentioned to him that the 1st 2 weeks, it worked though! i think i lost 2-3 kg. but then, ain't enough for me. i want more! but, yaiiccckksss~ budget giler lari! during that time, just started new work in Chevron.

huhuuhuh~ i still remembered when you came to my office with the gaya of Intelligent & High End Salesman opsss~ and i brought you to the Meeting Room where all blinds down, macam nak buat projek hape je. haiiiippp~ konon takmo orang tau la rahsia kurus kan? ;) and i got 1st Sydney Fridge Magnet! weeee~ suke sayeeeee~ thinking of me in Sydney huh? (wooopssss there goes the 'Perasan' statement again, i asked him to buy for me actually :P) you are so passion with all those 'Magic Set'. really impressed with your passion! never ever met someone like that before. but i think you did well! i heard you are now really INTO it to lose more and more weight. can see the difference. maybe preparing for somebody special or special occasion aight? good for you, as long you are healthy! argggghhh u know more than i do~ and lucky girl then... got someone gagah and musclar and paling penting kurus man besides her!

~aNiSr~

weeeeeeee~ one of my colleague gonna get married this saturday! at subang villa hotel. weee~ subang? big yippie when someone mentioned about USJ, Subang Jaya or even some where Heights around there! ahahhahah~ i likeeee~ but thanks to you for introducing me the Subang area. Summit is heaven! you got to be there for Mini Series. It's HeeeaaVEnnnnNnnn... but this areas might be prohibited for me to drive around. scared all the memories will turn back to me. but wth? u have to face it aight? where ever you go, definitely you gonna get across thinking about him. not that area je... heh!

back to the getting married issue (whooaaa kind of big one huh?), she's getting married with her lovely fiancee of course! really excited bout her marriage coz this is the 2nd Chinese wedding that i'm gonna attend. i still remembered when the 1st time i attended a Chinese wedding in Taiping. soooooo happening! ehehhehe~ especially the part of long Yaaaammmmssseeeeeennnngggg! cooll neeehhh! the longer you can hold your breath while shouting the 'Yamseng'means longer life @ longer marriage rite? but when i asked one of Chinese colleaque the real meaning of holding your breath while shouting Yamseng, lagi selamber jawab 'alaaa takde meaning pape pon, tu semua nak mabuk-mabuk je tu' hahahah~ nice one!

today, i consulted one of good friend of mine, about her preparation for the her BIG Day, some issues arise, yeah! when involve with the Man called DAD, it's gonna be truly BIG issue. but hey~ every dad wants the best for his daughter rite? but i just consulted her on what should she & her fiancee need to do then. because it's just 5months away! i told her to made the A list, for each and every month, what should she do or buy or prepare. yup! i'm a good consultant, i know! thihihi~ she kinda sad and never stop thinking on how to deal with his dad. i understand the issue~ haih! dah nak kawen susah, tak jadi kawen pon susah, tak de bf pon susah~ yaickssss~

this reminds me on my dad too. how excited he can be that time when i started to consult with him for my day (which obviously mmg tak jadi~:P) eventhough he still pretending reading the newspaper la that time. the day that i told him that, i'm no longer with the other half. wheewwwww~ so relief when he said 'ok la, dah takde pape,takpe la' and at the same time when i told him 'errrr~ i've met someone and i think you still remember him during 'closest' birthday so called party @ kenduri :P guess what, he said he can't remember which one eventhough there are only few Male friends there. kengkonon cam tak perasan la kot. but then, there goes all the POLICE TYPE question, 'keje mane, buat pe, family tinggal mane, family die keje ape and list continues' (i dunno why my heart started pounding so fast now! errrgggghhh demmit! it's the same feeling when i'm driving all the way to pick him up at his house for the 1st time l:'( ) but then, i answered all the questions with flying colors! weeeee~ pass dah satu bab!

another part will be errrrr~ 'the parents want to see both of you after raya' and my dad with the slamber answer ' nak datang, datang la, rumah ni mmg sentiasa terbuka untuk terima sape sape pon nak datang rumah' wooohoooo~ kind of berapi the answer aight? but hey! that's my dad - knowns as 'Sekali cakap, kalau tak kene tembakan das polis, that's not my REAL dad :P' but yeah, the discussion continues. at some point he thought that his 'closest' more excited than him, but at some point, he thought 'kalau die takde cakap, takkan 'closest' die pepandai nak cakap kan? so tunggu je la. tau la nanti die cakap.jangan pakse or tanye die, die akan cakap sendiri' woaahaaaa~ never thought my dad truly sporting and accepting someone that easy as well can predict the other side of stories? oopss~ forgot Ai Ai Polis! no need more elaboration on this happy issue because all that are only left for good memories...

please... don't blame anybody on this, i never blame on anything or anybody why all this thing ain't happen like i wished for. i know you blamed to 'closest' as being so excited on this, but hey~ 'dah tak jadi, dah ok?' maybe you can blame me! for being too excited or being too open telling my dad on this BIG thing.i think that's the moment that you feel errrrkk~ Me (as in him) getting married? errrr~ believe me, i thought i just want to fix things up! yes, one of it - relationship with my dad (u will know the other side of story of me n my dad in the next next post)~ i never regret of teliing the BIG THING issue to my dad. as we became closer and closer than before. thanks to you again... i never mentioned that you are actually a BIG HELPER in changing my story life, didn't i? most of it, are GOOD one though! that's what i always said that i never regret that telling you that i'm in love with you. hurmmm~ used to be....

~aNiSr~

i don't wannabe someone who turns a warmth family upside down, who breaks the family bond because of someone in the family ain't feel the same way that others do.

i am the only one and always wish i can be with a family that have unbounded family bond. i wish i can call all the names with the 'pangkat' eventhough the age ain't so much difference. sometimes, when i went back to my dad's kampung, so fun calling this all cousin's 'kak lang', 'kak ngah', 'bang long'... there goes all those 'pangkats'. i feel so bond together eventhough i might turn out not-so-like this cousins, that cousins. heheheh~

long time ago, i wish i can get a Abang and a Kakak. yup! i still wannabe the Manja one la of course. :P but yeah! i am now having a so call - Abang and Sister In Law. heheheheh~ which i seriously now so thankful to have them around. better be with your own family rather than others aight? like my mom always said, 'it will never be the same when you surrounded by real family who sometimes had tough time together and Other Family eventhough they treats you very well'

yup! but i still remember when i saw your picture with the siblings and where your arms are around the sisters. so touched each and everytime i saw that picture. really shows that you are so protective to the sisters and will NEVER EVER let anything happen to them. i still remember once you have told me that you scared to bring me out when thinking that you have sisters around you. thinking how will be my parents feel when a guy dragging out their daughter for night outing. alahai~ kalau dah berkenan, as long SINCERE, i don't see so much problem on that. don't u think? but i understand. once i become a mother one day, of course i'm gonna bebel A LOT when i see a guy taking my daughter for outing rite? can't imagine if you be the father? hahahahah~ mmg mampos la kene kurung dan syarahan agama Al-Kulliyah life depan pagar rumah. but it's just a lame dream that i 'berangan-angan' long time ago. no more dreaming Miss Anis?

but i am more thankful that i've met these 2 adorable Ladies (in fact is 3 lol! but lately we barely communicate each other, might be she's also feel guilty of what happened to me and US) . i never have to mention both their names. you know who you are aight? this two lovely Ladies, always made my day when they are around. there are always the time that i felt, are they really sincere treat me as their friends or just hmmm~ i think you know what i mean. but guess what my 6th sense always tells me? they are REALLY SINCERE to be my friends. never doubt bout that. but yeah~ i always be prepare for the worst you know. might be someday they will getting new friend in the family.(oh yeah! definitely~) whether are they still remember me till then? but friends might come and go but TRUE friend will always be there eventhough you are not around or not anymore in this world...

~aNiSr~

just received a call from his 'closest'. that's it! yup~ this 'closest' thought that it's time to let it go. it's gonna be tough one, but when you can feel that he has someone else, better jump with a parachute (thank God there is one!) before the airplane crashed down aight? at least you know you will be landing some where safely (i hope)

do you know that sometimes you have chemistry with someone and you just knew it from beginning? when i met him during our '1st Fun Time Together', i felt we got connection somewhere. i can feel his feelings and when the time he gonna called or SMSed me. kinda fun! i just knew but i didn't tell you of course or else - there goes the 'Perasan' girl :P 'dah suke, sumer benda ade 6th sense'

but yup! after the 'silent moment', first thing that i thought 'he's just not ready or have a serious thought about IT' and guess what, it's true! after a while, u send an sms stated that you are not ready for any commitment at the moment. woooohoooo~ as simple as an SMS (i know it should be 'as simple as ABC'). as simple as that. DONE! That's it! I (as in him) can go anywhere without thinking about this girl or THE relationship anymore. i doubt it when you stated 'Yes, We are!' when i asked whether are we still friends. it's so easy for a Man. a simple SMS can take all things away. i wonder who's that lucky girl... seriously i mean it. lucky to have you. but unlucky for me to experience all this. i bet she will never experience all this cause you never dare to do these mistakes again aight? better don't! let me be the last person that experience all this things please.

i always pray that if all these happen to me because of what i did to few people mainly named as Man before, i willingly accept all this fate. but if i'm the middle of so called 'maltreatment @ abuse' victim, may Allah bless ANYbody who intentionally plan to do that to me. Semoga Allah mengampunkan dosa hambaNya yang tidak sempurna...

like this 'closest' always told me, 'it's hard when people don't know how to appreciate someone that love them more than anything'

it's ok. i never regret that i loved you before. i became to know myself better...

~aNiSr~

today, i saw one guy is trying to sell some thing to us at the 'Rasuk' (only certain Chevroners know where the hell is this place), he looks very gentleman, wore a yellow stripes long sleeve shirt, very polished. he went to us with a sincere smile. can't stop looking at him while he's trying to sell out the stationeries stuff to others. he looks like he's really sincere and sweet enough to use no-force-method-please. i can't stop looking at him and see how he gonna do his job. but pity him, even though with all his charming, nobody wants to buy that errrr~ so call stationeries set. eventhough it's only cost ten bucks. i think you know how did i look at him until he's away.

away time before, my Super Fast Good Friend did tell me 'U ni kan boleh tak, tgk orang jangan buat muke smerk? u slalu buat muke when you look at people' OK! SuperFast Good Friend, me - as people born in July will judge people through OBSERVATION remember?

~aNiSr~

there are few friends had already advised me not to proceed. but knowing me as very Super-the-Degil person, i just don't want to give up.

'closest' to this person, were actually had advised me, and said ' Hey, i don't like how he treats you eventhough .... and in fact, i never though this will be coming from one of the 'closest' mentioned that ' he did mentioned that it's difficult to have a relationship with Anis' woohoooo~ it's coming from the 'closest'? never thought of it! wooopssss~ tell me which part of difficulties you mean? when people doesn't have any feelings towards you, there will whole-world of reasons.

seriously, i think our relationship is too fast! yup! from the moment we went out for the 1st time till the 'silent moment', everything was TOO FAST. seriously too fast. i think we should not be telling 'closest' on our friendship at 1st stage. but for me, whenever i got new friends, i will definitely tell someone 'closest', at least. but then, i just can mentioned AGAIN that everything was TOO FAST. don't u think so? but wth, things happened and can't be undo. what we can do now, is proceed what left for us. i know u have new life and i think a good one without me,(u don't ever bother whether i'm exist or not i guess). as for me, still carry on with -seriously-i-don't-know-what- and wait till only God knows when....

sometimes, i thought too fast is good, u don't have to think the negative part, only thinking of positive part, and let the rest goes with the flows. but then, 'this thing' is not for one day - it is for the rest of your life. definitely i want a happy ending, who doesn't?

one of my BFF mentioned that, might be he is seriously not ready for this. but hey! u can tell me straight on my face, doesn't matter, as long i got a reason to hold. right now, i'm like hanging without anything~ or drama words means ' gantung tak bertali'.

it's like a journey to the deserted island, fun snorkeling & barbeque together and then left there alone with nothing. am i suppose to swim to the land by my own without any safety jacket with me? i should brought one that time...

~aNiSr~

when we were 1st time met, i call it Love at First Sight. because why? i saw you recite a Doa before you start studying in front of the library. i still remember that day, me, you and your ex-roomate during Beta (thanks to him i guess for meet us up) studied outside of the library. Managerial Maths! yup~ you are really good but me? haihhh~ felt glad that i kind of blur bout this calculation thing, or else, we ain't meet up so much aight? :D

i hope it's never been too late to apologize for all things that i said/did to you before. i know u are trying your best (so hard) but it's just me... no more words can explain why i wanted to end the relationship. but i will never forget all the best/nicest things that we shared together. all things that you prepared for both of us and our families. we will never know what will happen in future. but i always pray the best for you. thank you again~ but for now, i hope one day you will understand why....

~aNiSr~

i wonder what were u thinking if u reading all these. yup~ i never done this when i was with you before. i can't even tell my EXACT feelings. maybe too long relationship? or maybe too much things that i tolerate? it is simply- i can't even tell who am i when i'm with you after that particular years. yup! can't even tell what's left for us. LOVE? use to be full of it before, but at one stage, it became lower, lower and phoooffff~ gone! yup~ after 4 years.

like u said, 'after 4years, and u decided this?'

i know u never thought of this at all. but i did! some times yes. but i couldn't dare to tell you. can't find the right time. don't blame anybody for this. blame me. yes! i'm the one who should be blame. i just can't help forcing myself to spread the love as before. and i'm not being fair to you if i still carry on with the relationship. maybe i should be punish for all these. and guess it is in process!

may you will be meeting someone that much away sincere and lovable. and i know u will be. as i know u are such a nice and warmth person.

* and what on earth, this Elliot Yamin singing 'that' song when i'm typing all these... haih~

~aNiSr~

i guess Elliot Yamin knows me better than anybody when he sang this song :P

I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you
& I'm wishing that you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go? You could have let me know
So now I'm all alone,
Girl you could have stayed
but you wouldn't give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more then I can stand
And all my tears they keep running down my face
Why did you turn away?

So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you want it to be

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do I'll wait for you

It's been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)
You got me feeling crazy (crazy)
How can you walk away,
Everything stays the same
I just can't do it baby
What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is & it just ain't like that
Why can't you look at me, your still in love with me
Don't leave me crying.

Baby why can't we just start over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But your telling me it wont be enough

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do I'll wait for you

So why does you pride make you run & hide
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what your keeping inside
Thats not how you want it to be

Baby I will wait for you
Baby I will wait for you
If it's the last thing I do

Baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do I'll wait for you

I'll Be Waiting.

~Elliot Yamin - Wait For You~

but not all stories can end up according to the lyrics @ scripts. I remembered when my BFF's BF told me before ' Kita ni atas dunia, hanyalah pelakon dan skrip tu semua dah disediakan oleh yang Maha Esa. Kalau betul cara skrip dan lakonannya, maka cantiklah cerita hidup kita' Sounds kind like that. but yup, totally agree!

~aNiSr~

received this e-mail last week. but just opened it today. sent by high school BFF

Petua Mencuci Hati oleh Datuk Dr Haji Fadzilah Kamsah

Segala aspek kehidupan ini bermula daripada hati. Oleh itu, dibawah ini ada beberapa cara bagaimana hendak mencuci hati, diolah oleh pakar motivasi Datuk Dr. Haji Fadzilah Kamsah.

1. Dirikan solat dan banyakkan berdo'a - Ini adalah salah satu kaedah yang sungguh berkesan. Semasa berdo'a turut katakan: "Ya Allah, jadikan hatiku bersih."

2. Selawat keatas Nabi Muhammad s.a.w paling minima 100X sebelum tidur. Ini merupakan satu pelaburan yang mudah dan murah. Di samping dosa-dosa diampunkan, otak tenang, murah rezeki, orang sayangkan kita dan mencetuskan semua perkara kebaikan.

3. Solat taubat - Selain daripada memohon keampunan, dapat mencuci hati dan menenangkan minda.

4. Membaca Al-Quran - Selain dapat mencuci hati juga menenangkan jiwa, penyembuh, penenang, terapi. Sekurang- kurangnya bacalah "Qulhu-allah" sebanyak 3X.

5. Berma'af-ma'afan sesama kawan setiap hari - Semasa meminta maaf perlu sebutkan.

6. Bisikan kepada diri perkara yang positif - Jangan sesekali mengkritik, kutuk diri sendiri, merendah-rendahkan kebolehan diri sendiri. Katakan lah: "Aku sebenarnya......(perkara yang elok2 belaka).

7. Program minda/cuci minda - Paling baik pada waktu malam sebelum tidur, senyum, pejam mata. Katakan didalam hati: "Ya Allah, cuci otak aku, cuci hatiku. Esok aku nak jadi baik, berjaya, ceria, bersemangat, aktif, positif." Menurut kajian saikologi, apa yang disebut sebelum tidur dapat dirakamkan sepanjang tidur sehingga keesokan harinya - CUBALAH!!).

8. Berpuasa - Sekiranya dalam berpuasa, terhindar dari melakukan perkara2 kejahatan.

9. Cuba ingat tentang mati (Sekiranya hendak melakukan sesuatu kejahatan, tidak sampai hati kerana bimbang akan mati bila2 masa).

10. Kekalkan wuduk.

11. Bersedekah.

12. Belanja orang makan.

13. Jaga makanan - jangan makan makanan yang subhat (was2, tidak pasti halal atau tidak).

14. Berkawan dengan ulama.

15. Berkawan dengan orang miskin (menginsafi).

16. Pesan pada orang, jadi baik.

17. Menjaga pancaindera (mata, telinga, mulut... dsb). Jangan dengar orang mengumpat.

this reminds me that someone put up the status @ !YM - Emosi Dapat Membusukkan Hati, which he CLAIMED that the status is made for sorang minah emosi menggelabah yang rempit. wow~ i wonder who she was~ haih~

and i never know belanja orang makan can clean your heart. ahhahah~ but i like treat people with food! because i am SuperFood Lady :D everyone knows that!!! can see from the body and double chin ooppss~ :P

~aNiSr~

got this email from BFF (ex-housemate). Age & Character Calculation.
never bother bout the age since i am so WELL known with my age this year!

Is JULY people are really like this? For me, yup most of it ( 99%
haih~)

* Fun to be with (checked)
* Secretive (checked)
* Difficult to fathom and to be understood (double checked)
* Quiet unless excited or tensed (errrrrr half checked)
* Takes pride in oneself (wooppsss errrr sometimes checked :p)

* Has reputation (:"> checked kot)
* Easily consoled (checked)
* Honest (checked)
* Concern about people's feelings (triple quadruple checked)
* Tactful (errrrr not checked or 1/8 checked)
* Friendly (checked checked)
* Approachable (checked)
* Very emotional (countless checked)
* Temperamental and unpredictable (checked)
* Moody and easily hurt (adeh mak~ sometimes triple checkmate on this one)
* Witty and sarky (sarky? u mean 'suck'y? hhahah! no such word of sarky or maybe starky kot? but i think half checked la)
* Sentimental (sangat checked ni!)
* Not revengeful (checked)
* Forgiving but never forgets (truly checked)
* Dislike nonsensical and unnecessary things (errrrr quarter checked i
guess)
* Guides others physically and mentally (yup! checked confidently)
* Sensitive and forms impressions carefully( doube checked for me)

* Wary and sharp (checked on certain situations :D)
* Judge people through observations (tripleeeee checked)
* Hardworking (to some 'people @ things' checked please!) 
* No difficulties (errrr checked jugak la)

i guess this intelligent people really do their homework lol. most of
it are SOLIDLY true. might be depends on how you actually run your life.
but all this are only deep research and for reference purpose only,
don't ever try to be all these if you are not really into it. be
yourself!

just for 'mengade' purpose, i put up the age calculation too since it
has been calculated with the character. (now i know character can be calculated :P) 

Age in years            24.29
Age in months         291
Age in days             8865
Age in hours            212769
Age in minutes        12766135
Age in seconds         765968106
Age in Milli seconds  76596810615
Age in weeks           62058
You born on             Saturday

~aNiSr~

i found this article on my bed. guess the 'closest' put it on my bed and wants me to read gist of it. haih~ might be the 'closest' scared that i'm gonna be Malaysia's Next Top Spinster. ehhehehehe~

Kemusykilan Anda Dijawab oleh Mohd. Yusof Abas

Saya seorang gadis remaja yang sedang berangan-angan memilih pasangan hidup yang sesuai sebagai suami yang penyayang dan bertanggungjawab terhadap isteri dan anak-anak. Bagaimana caranya untuk memperolehi impian tersebut? - Suhana Hazrena, Seberang Perai, Pulau Pinang.

JAWAPAN: Anda sekarang baru meningkat remaja, oleh itu bertenanglah kerana masih panjang lagi masa hadapan anda dan bertindaklah secara matang dan sabar. Jangan sekali-kali anda bersikap gopoh, terutama mengenai teman pilihan hidup kita, yang telah ditentukan Allah S.W.T. sejak dari azali lagi.

Ini kerana jodoh seseorang itu akan ketemu juga apabila tiba masa yang telah ditentukan itu. Tetapi dalam memilih bakal suami ini saya dapat gariskan sedikit panduan untuk renungan anda. Iaitu anda jadilah seorang gadis idaman kaum lelaki dahulu sebelum anda dapat menarik perhatian mereka yang menjadi idaman anda. Sebab lelaki biasanya tidak akan tertarik dengan mereka yang tidak ada sifat yang menawan tersebut. Sebagai contohnya, biasanya lelaki tidak suka gadis yang selalu bergayut di telefon, gadis yang terlalu ramai kawan lelaki, gadis yang tidak pandai masak dan tidak suka ke dapur, gadis yang suka berbelanja besar, dan berpoya-poya, gadis yang tidak jujur atau tidak ikhlas.

Jesteru itu berhati-hatilah dan jadilah wanita yang baik, sopan dan beradab lagi beragama kerana wanita yang beriman adalah untuk lelaki yang beriman. Bukan maksud saya anda tidak boleh bebas. Kerana kebebesan yang telah diberikan Islam itu kepada kaum wanitanya amatlah luas dan tinggi, tidak ada kebebasan lain yang lebih tinggi daripadanya. Wallahualam.

i guess i'm the lucky one who have read this article. bang bang bang! like mesingan i tell u ~ no wonder~ yup! thinking too much again....

~aNiSr~

i had HEARTACHE all day long. this is not HEARTACHE-sakit-hati, it is really heartache - biologically! dunno why, maybe i slept with all the words cramped in my head. slept with lights on, slept without really preparing to sleep. huh?  i remembered i slept with thousands of words inside my head, too much confusion inside the heart. but, seems like it might end by the end of today. isn't it? or it just a beginning of a WAR? i can feel someone (or might be few people) is/are cursing me in GOOD/POLITE way (is there any?).

trying so hard to get away (meaning so farrrrr away) from me.  actually i've been trying soooOOoo hard to do same thing since your 'silent moment'. but i FAILED with flying colours! :D so many reasons why it failed. maybe i just don't know the meaning of 'GIVING UP'. because why? i thought you are the ONE...

You know why :

• i never behave like this before



• i never been this reckless & restless like this before



• i never done this before



• i never been this sincere before (yup!i don't believe it for myself too)

when i think again or so call RE-think, it might be it turned out that u liked me because i like @ love you first. yeah~ basically kind of 'kesian pompuan ni'

Let me ask you few questions,

• How many of you think that when a Woman confronted you and says she's in love with you, your EGO are up top the sky?



• How many of you think that when a woman sincerely stated that she's in love with you, you being cocky and raise up "jual mahal' part and says ' You Like Me First, and do I have to Like You Back? why should i bother?"



• How many of you think that Man should be doing the feelings confrontation part first rather than a Woman?



• How many of you think that Man gonna really appreciate when a Woman says the 3 Magic Words?

* I bet i'm gonna get the lowest percentage on the last question though~ '

that's is why in Hadith is stated that 'Malu adalah sebahagian daripada Iman' - sent by someone who really good in digging out many sources of this. that's why i like him very much~ giler tapi beriman. ye ke? :P

~aNiSr~

taddaaaa~ yup! i'm ready! but with whom? Hanya Allah yang Maha Mengetahui.

Sesungguhnya Allah Maha Penyayang lagi Maha Pemurah....

Jangan berhenti berdoa kepadaNya kerana hanya Dialah satu-satunya yang memakbulkan doa kita semua...

Yup! Never give up till now. I know there will be someone outhere for me. (yang boleh bagi Handbag Anya Hindmarch boleh? ngeee~:D)

*dah cukup ke duit simpanan kamu Cik Anis? :P lalalalala~


~aNiSr~

u must be kidding me! whoaaaa~ 12 post in few hours. lots of stuff to tell wohhooo~ carefull! some people might preparing their M-16 to shoot you from far far away. hehheheh~ i just hate using 'some people' - sounds so racist :P i might change to some individuals (too 'skema' i think) huhuh~ or some unique homosapiens? errgghhh sounds so biological. i think i'm gonna stay on the some people? herrgghh~ what ever~ i think kewujudan this blog might hurt some people (ergghhh i hate that words) or might widely open their eyes to some people (again!) but BELIEVE ME i just want to fix some things up. some things that we can't tell out straight on the face, some things that we can't talk over the phone, some things that we can't tell through messenger. some of you might think "si Anis saje mengade nak ceritera kat seluruh dunia" or "saje la tu nak simpati" or "die ni mmg giler. lalalalala" ahhahahah~ am i too negative or what? but i know some of u might at least thought all these sentences kan? ehehheh~ i got 6th sense u know. or shall i say, i know better? :P

My mom always told me when she used to write letters to my dad during their 'war' time. u know when married couple used to have their 'own-world-war'... my mom used to write him letters. so sweet and kind of oldies type! when she told me bout it, i was like, does it work? but heyyy! it works! some things that she wrote on that letter made my dad realized that 'ohhh, i never knew i was like that, i never realize i did that & etc...' hmmm~ yeah! seems work well till now.

*i wonder where he put that letters after he read it. hehehehe~

And you know what, I Miss U and at the same time hate what has happen to us...

I don't like missing you but I love having you to miss

~aNiSr~

you got someone else? wheewww~ this is not the 1st time that i heard u had someone else. please laaa~ to those people out there, is there always be 'GF & BF' indicator when a Man and Woman together? haihhh~ if a Man put a Woman's photo, so that's it? GF & BF already? adehh~ no wonder i'm too tired putting up my BFF photos or else... heyy~ your BF la tu? u dating ngan die ke? u hook up ngan die ke? and the list continues... but yeah~ it means something when you, a Man puts a Woman's (or vice versa) photo to show off to the world that you're the only one who has Woman friend (or vice versa of course!)? hhahahah~guess what? different people, different mind~ be that different! not be that people. i always do that :D keeps me healthier! :P
but what if? the Man deleted the Woman or Man-Woman Together photos? means what? he hates him? or he had enough of her? he already have someone else? someone ask him to delete it or he simply terdelete? hahahah~ that's nice one, too much technology i guess but there will always be a prompt ' Are you sure you want to delete this photo? Yes , No? you can always click No lol :P!

~aNiSr~