there are few friends had already advised me not to proceed. but knowing me as very Super-the-Degil person, i just don't want to give up.
'closest' to this person, were actually had advised me, and said ' Hey, i don't like how he treats you eventhough .... and in fact, i never though this will be coming from one of the 'closest' mentioned that ' he did mentioned that it's difficult to have a relationship with Anis' woohoooo~ it's coming from the 'closest'? never thought of it! wooopssss~ tell me which part of difficulties you mean? when people doesn't have any feelings towards you, there will whole-world of reasons.
seriously, i think our relationship is too fast! yup! from the moment we went out for the 1st time till the 'silent moment', everything was TOO FAST. seriously too fast. i think we should not be telling 'closest' on our friendship at 1st stage. but for me, whenever i got new friends, i will definitely tell someone 'closest', at least. but then, i just can mentioned AGAIN that everything was TOO FAST. don't u think so? but wth, things happened and can't be undo. what we can do now, is proceed what left for us. i know u have new life and i think a good one without me,(u don't ever bother whether i'm exist or not i guess). as for me, still carry on with -seriously-i-don't-know-what- and wait till only God knows when....
sometimes, i thought too fast is good, u don't have to think the negative part, only thinking of positive part, and let the rest goes with the flows. but then, 'this thing' is not for one day - it is for the rest of your life. definitely i want a happy ending, who doesn't?
one of my BFF mentioned that, might be he is seriously not ready for this. but hey! u can tell me straight on my face, doesn't matter, as long i got a reason to hold. right now, i'm like hanging without anything~ or drama words means ' gantung tak bertali'.
it's like a journey to the deserted island, fun snorkeling & barbeque together and then left there alone with nothing. am i suppose to swim to the land by my own without any safety jacket with me? i should brought one that time...
~aNiSr~
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