16th of June 2007 - 1st of August 2007 (but it started much earlier lol~)
what's all about the dates? haihhh~ LOTS of things! sunny & rainy days. but most of it WAS sunny & rainbow day. ehehehh~ but then, became doom and dawn day. u asked me why? better asked him why. yeah~ this is my FIRST thing ever that i've solidly blind with all his characters, laughter, talkings. yup! i'm ni LOVE~ but hey, it's me again! i never been like this before. eventhough u knew me as SuperCrazy, i thought i've met SuperCrazy 2 or the Other Half of Supercrazy, but noppp~ not for me i guess. i think i'm not the one for him. not me, it's him. we had soOooooOOOo much fun together, but suddenly, silent.... ask me why n how? tell me why n how on earth would it be! i'm gone mad & crazy~ but Alhamdulillah, i've met some new people that at least, trying so hard to be by my side.
have you ever feel when you see someone, your heart start pounding faster n faster, seems like it will never stop? when you see someone, you can't hide your nervousness, your world stop rotating, your stomache full of butterflies and all other bugs? :P yeah~ that's happened to me. it was never EVER happen before!!! believe me~ yeah, i know u won't believe it. but it happened! to me!
i asked myself why? is it me? my mistake that i confronted him that i'm in love with him? my fault? so many people thought that i'm being "Perigi Cari Timba" or should i say "Well Finds the Pail" ? errkkk~ sounds funny & stupid too :P but Anis is the SuperCrazy! :D till today, i didn't regret at ALL that i confronted him. but like one quote says :
We give love only because we do,
not because we expect it in return.
do u believe with this quote? i do! but at some point, definitely you expect it in return. hahahha~ but, refer to this quote :
To love is to let go when you know
that his feelings are not for you.
huhuuh~ it's hard, i know! but (herecomes another but :P) :
Don't give up on love because there is always someone who loves you, even if it's not the person you were hoping for
aiyaakkk~ really aaa? but how can we be fall in love with someone that we are not hoping for? kinda hard~ but that's life.
Find someone who really loves you, not the other way round. haihhh~
i always believe that he will tell me the truth why he turns away so sudden. till this point, i don't care if he says, he has someone else, he doesn't like me, he doesn't like my attitude, is it because i was someone ex's bla bla bla, or what so ever, but Please! tell me the truth. heard so much about you (most of them are negatives) but i don't want to hear from others, i want to hear everything from you. I know you have the right to choose and deserve to pick the best.
i can't even dare to ask. because why? u never let me. avoiding me is the best you can do now i guess. and in fact, i think you never feel the same way before. i felt we aren't like before, but u didn't. i think all those words that u have said to me before just ??? i couldn't dare to put the word. i can even paste (thanks to !YM Message Archive :P) all the things that u have said to me, all the promises, but for what? to make u angrier or hate me even worse? that's the last thing to do! i wish we can be like before. but i think too far away to happen. :'(
The truth may hurt me, but your lies kill me.
~aNiSr~
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