A N I S 97

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Do It Well

I ain't ever met a man like that (No)
I ain't ever fell so far, so fast (No)
You can turn me on, throw me off track
Boy you do it, do it
You do it, do it
You're doin' it well

I ain't ever met a man like that (No)
I ain't ever fell so far, so fast (No)
You can turn me on, throw me off track
Boy you do it, do it
You do it, do it
You're doin' it well

Oh, yeah... hey

Let me tell you how it's gonna go
You and me, gonna need a little privacy
I don't wanna do the dance, no do-si-do
I'm a one woman man 7 days a week
Quit tryina play it cool boy make your move
I told you how it is, nothin' to lose
You been starin over here all night for free
And I ain't takin' no cash or credit, just a guarantee
There ain't nobody else but me boy

You ain't even tryina play me boy
'Cause you're so good, and you're so fine
Got me sayin' crazy things, listen

I ain't ever met a man like that (No)
I ain't ever fell so far, so fast (No)
You can turn me on, throw me off track
Boy you do it, do it
You do it, do it
You're doin' it well

I ain't ever met a man like that (No)
I ain't ever fell so far, so fast (No)
You can turn me on, throw me off track
Boy you do it, do it
You do it, do it
You're doin' it well

Hey, yeah
oH

Baby not lookin' for false pretenses
I think you just shocked me to my senses
Everything that you do feels right
Do it, do it
Do it, do it all night

Baby not lookin' for false pretenses
I think you just shocked me to my senses
Everything that you do feels right
Do it, do it
Do it, do it all night

I ain't ever met a man like that (No)
I ain't ever fell so far, so fast (No)
You can turn me on, throw me off track
'Cause you do it, do it
You do it, do it
You're doin' it well

I ain't ever met a man like that (No)
I ain't ever fell so far, so fast (No)
You can turn me on, throw me off track
Boy you do it, do it
You do it, do it
You're doin' it well

I ain't ever met a man like that (No) (Like that)
I ain't ever fell so far, so fast (No) (Like that)
You can turn me on, throw me off track
Boy you do it, do it
You do it, do it
You're doin' it well

I ain't ever met a man like that (No)
I ain't ever fell so far, so fast (No)
You can turn me on, throw me off track
Boy you do it, do it
You do it, do it
You're doin' it well

Do it, do it
You do it, do it
You're doin' it well

Here's the thing
I was minding my own business doin' what I do
I wasn't tryina look for anything
All of a sudden couldnt take my eyes off you
I didn't even know if you could tell
That you had me in a daze sayin' 'What the hell'
Here's my name, number baby just hit my cell
Loving everything you do 'cause you do it well
Don't know what you got me thinkin'

You ain't even tryina play me boy
'Cause you're so good, and you're so fine
Got me sayin' crazy things, listen

by : Jeniffer Lopez / JLo

Apologise

I'm holding on your rope
Got me ten feet off the ground
And I'm hearing what you say
But I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down
But wait...
You tell me that you're sorry
Didn't think I'd turn around and say...

That it's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

I'd take another chance, take a fall, take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
(But that's nothing new)
Yeah yeah

I loved you with a fire red, now it's turning blue
And you say
"Sorry" like the angel heaven let me think was you
But I'm afraid...

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
Woahooo woah

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, yeah yeah
I said it's too late to apologize, a yeah

I'm holding your rope
Got me ten feet off the ground...

by : Timbaland feat. One Republic

Bubbly

I've been awake for a while now
You've got me feelin' like a child now
'Cause every time I see your bubbly face
I get the tinglies in a silly place

It starts in my toes
An i crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes
I always know
you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go

The rain is falling on my window pane
But we are hiding in a safer place
Under covers staying dry and warm
You give me feelings that I adore

They start in my toes
Make me crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes
I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go

What am I going to say
When you make me feel this way
I just mmmmm

And it starts in my toes
Makes me crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes
I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go

I've been asleep for a while now
You tuck me in just like a child now
'Cause every time you hold me in your arms
I'm comfortable enough to feel your warmth

And it starts in my soul
And I lose all control
When you kiss my nose
The feeling shows
'cause you make me smile baby
Just take your time now
Holdin' me tight

Wherever wherever wherever you go
Wherever wherever wherever you go

wherever you go
I always know
'Cause you make me smile
Even just for a while

by : Colbie Callait

Love Like This

Oh...
Never find a love like this
Oh...
Never find a love like this

We go back so far,
Swingin in your back yard,
All the things that we used to do
We were cool back in high school
Ooh I really liked you,
Must have been your attitude.

That's why you keep on runnin
In and out of my mind.
As the years they'll roll by,
Baby, now I know why
I keep comin back to you.

You're the only one that knows me,
Love it when you hold me,
Never find a love like this.
Let me hear you say,
Now I'll never be lonely,
Look at what you've shown me,
Never find a love like this

Well this life tried to keep us apart
You keep callin me back to your heart.
Let me hear you say,
Aren't you glad you found me,
Wrap you all around me,
Never find a love like this

All the guys tried to take me,
You're the one who saved me,
I feel like I owe you my life.
And as strange as it may seem,
I'll go if you take me
Home and lent to sacrifice.

That's why you keep on runnin
In and out of my mind.
As the years, they'll roll by,
It's not hard to know why
I keep comin back to you.

You're the only one that knows me,
Love it when you hold me,
Never find a love like this.
Let me hear you say,
Now I'll never be lonely,
Look at what you've shown me,
Never find a love like this.

Cause this life tried to keep us apart,
You keep calling me back to your heart.
Let me hear you say,
Aren't you glad you found me,
Wrap you all around me,
Never find a love like this.

May never find a love, love, love a love like this,
That still make me think about my middle school kiss.
I sit here in this chair and I wish
For you not to leave me now.
My friends they always told me
Not to make you my wifey,
Man they was putting you down.
And now they see we rollin,
Me and you, we strollin,
They don't wanna come around.

Let me hear you say,
You're the only one that knows me,
Love it when you hold me,
Never find a love like this.
Let me hear you say,
Now I'll never be lonely,
Look at what you've shown me,
Never find a love like this.

When this life tries to keep us apart,
You keep callin me back to your heart.
Let me hear you say,
I'm so glad you found me,
Wrap you all around me,
Never find a love like this,

Oh... Never find a love like this...
When this life tried to keep us apart,
You keep callin me back to your heart,
Let me hear you say,
Oh... Never find a love like this.
Oh... Never find a love like this

by : Natasha Bedingfield feat. Sean Kingston

Never There

I need your arms around me
I need to feel your touch
I need your understanding
I need your love so much

You tell me that you love me so
You tell me that you care
But when I need you (baby)
Baby you're never there

On the phone
long long distance
always through such strong resistance
First you say you're too busy
I wonder if you even miss me

Never there
You're never there
You're never ever ever ever there

A golden bird that flies away
A candle's fickle flame
To think I held you yesterday

Your love was just a game
You tell me that you love me so
You tell me that you care
But when I need you (baby)
Baby

Take the time to get to know me
If you want me why can't you just show me
We're always on this roller coaster
If you want me why can't you get closer

Never there
You're never there
You're never ever ever ever there

by : Cake

~aNiSr~

wehuuuuuuuu~ i found some interesting part. Eventhough we've known each other quite some time ago, actually i've met Super Fast Good Friend on 10th June 2007 @Uptown. That time, i just came back from Kuala Kubu Bharu. I've asked Super-Fast-Good-Friend before to come along. tp sombong, then i remembered Super-Fast-Good-Friend so menyesal coz tak ikut when he saw the photos. yeah when i looked back my organizer, met Super-Fast- Good -Friend on 'friend's' wedding on 2nd June 2007.

so the flow will be :

• 2nd JUNE



• 10th JUNE



• 16th JUNE - the most perfect day!



• 1st JULY



• 18th JULY



• 19th JULY



• 20th JULY



• 26th JULY - the happiest day!



• 29th JULY - the day!

* had great time! no doubt 'bout that...

~aNiSr~

ye! aku mmg 'terkena ketepek setepek kat muke' mase bace ni =p received from high school BFF on 16th August 2007.

16 Signs You Love Someone

SIXTEEN:

When you're on the phone with them late at night and they hang up, you still miss them even when it was just two minutes ago.

FIFTEEN:

You read their Texts and Ims Over and over again.

FOURTEEN:

You walk really slow when you're with them.

THIRTEEN:

You feel shy whenever they're around.

ELEVEN:

When you think about them, your heart beats faster but slower at the same time.

TEN:

You smile when you hear their voice.

NINE:

When you look at them, you can't see the other people around you, you just see him/her.

EIGHT:

You start listening to slow songs while thinking about them.

SEVEN:

They're all you think about.

SIX:

You get high just from their scent.

FIVE:

You relize you're always smiling when you're looking at them.

FOUR:

You would do anything for them, just to see them.

THREE:

While reading this, there was one person on your mind this whole time.

TWO:

You were so busy thinking about that person, you didnt notice number twelve was missing

ONE:

You just scrolled up to check & are now silently laughing at yourself.

~aNiSr~

received 6th Oct '06 yup! 2006.

WHEN U R ONLY 5 YRS OLD, I SAID I LOVE U.
U ASKED ME: WHAT IS IT?

WHEN U R 15 YRS OLD, I SAID I LOVE U.
U BLUSHED... U LOOK DOWN AND SMILE...

WHEN U R 20 YRS OLD, I SAID I LOVE U.
U PUT UR HEAD ON MY SHOULDER AND HOLD MY HAND... AFRAID THAT I MIGHT DISAPPEAR...

WHEN U R 25 YRS OLD, I SAID I LOVE U.
U PREPARE BREAKFAST AND SERVE IT IN FRONT OF ME, AND KISS MY FORHEAD SAID: U BETTER BE QUICK, IT'S GONNA BE LATE

WHEN U R 30 YRS OLD, I SAID I LOVE U.
U SAID: IF U REALLY LOVE ME, PLEASE COME BACK EARLY AFTER WORK.

WHEN U R 40 YRS OLD, I SAID I LOVE U.
U R CLEANING THE DINING TABLE AND SAID: OK DEAR, BUT IT'S TIME FOR U TO HELP OUR CHILD WITH HIS/HER REVISION...

WHEN U R 50 YRS OLD, I SAID I LOVE U.
U R KNITTING AND U LAUGH AT ME :-D

WHEN U R 60 YRS OLD, I SAID I LOVE U.
U SMILE AT ME :-)

WHEN U R 70 YRS OLD. I SAID I LOVE U.
WE SIT ON THE ROCK ING CHAIR WITH OUR GLASSES ON. I'M READING YOUR LOVE LETTER THAT U SENT TO ME 50 YRS AGO... WITH OUR HAND CROSSING TOGETHER...

WHEN U R 80 YRS OLD, U SAID U LOVE ME!
I DIDN'T SAY ANYTHING BUT CRIED... THAT DAY MUST BE THE HAPPIEST DAY OF MY LIFE! BECAUSE U SAID U LOVE ME!!!

PLEASE APPRECIATE YOUR LOVED ONES..SAY "I LOVE YOU" TO THEM TODAY!

[i love you] means really care for you......say it out but not to expect the return or anything....

[i love you] is said because there is a pure thought.. that was hoping this magical 3 words..can bring you happiness and futurity......and because of having such pure thoughts... ppl which have true heart to a person. gives out all his/her courage to tell : I love you

*Appreciate this words For It speaks and reveals the truth of a person.

Hope one day, when i turn 60, can see that smile on you :)

~aNiSr~

Found it!just vet through my inbox and found this SuperGiler Funny Love Letter. received it on 12th June 2007. yeah! still keep it. never fail to make me laugh like mad!

SURAT CINTA TIJAH

Tijah budak kampung, tapi bekerja di Kuala Lumpur .

Biasalah bila sudah duduk "town", mula lupa asal usul. Pakaian seksi maut, bercinta pula dgn lelaki mat saleh. Ke hulu ke hilir menayang boyfriendnya yg bermata biru.

Satu hari dia ternampak lelaki Inggeris tadi dgn wanita lain yg lebih cantik dan bergaya daripadanya.
Tijah menangis tiga hari tiga malam. Pada malam ke empat, Tijah mengambil sehelai kertas dan menulis surat untuk memutuskan perhubungannya dgn lelaki mat saleh tadi yg baru sebulan dikenalinya.


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Mike....

I WANT TO CUT CONNECTION US.

I have think about this very cook-cook. I know I clap one hand only.
Correctly, I have seen you and she walk-walk together at town with eyes myself. You grab hand she.

You always ask for apology back-back. I don't trust you again! You are really crocodile land.

My friend speak you play wood three. First-first I think my friend lie me. But now I know you correct-correct play wood three.

So, I break connection to pull my body from this love triangle. I know this result I pick is very correct, because you love she very high from
me.

So, I cut this connection to go far from here. I don't want you to play-play with my liver.

I have been crying until no more eye water thinking about you. I don't want banana to fruit two times.

Safe walk..
Tijah

And i wanna to translate this whole letter. hahhahah~ correct my Bahasa pls :P mind you - this is direct translation =p

Mike,
I nak putuskan hubungan kita.

I dah fikirkan tentang ni masak-masak. I tahu i bertepuk sebelah tangan sahaja.

Sebenarnya, i ternampak you dan dia berjalan-jalan bersama di bandar dengan mata i sendiri. You pegang tangan dia.

You selalu balik-balik minta maaf. I dah tak percayakan you lagi! You memang buaya darat.

Kawan i cakap you main kayu tiga. Awal-awal i ingatkan kawan i tipu i. tapi sekarang i tau u mmg betul-betul main kayu tiga.

Jadi, i nak putuskan hubungan untuk pergi jauh dari sini. I tak mahu u main-main dengan hati i.

I dah menangis sampai takde airmata kerana memikirkan tentang u. I tak nak pisang berbuah dua kali.

Selamat Jalan..
Tijah

hang gelak pasai apa? hahahahah!

~aNiSr~

Found it!just vet through my inbox and found this SuperGiler Funny Love Letter. received it on 12th June 2007. yeah! still keep it. never fail to make me laugh like mad!

SURAT CINTA TIJAH

Tijah budak kampung, tapi bekerja di Kuala Lumpur .

Biasalah bila sudah duduk "town", mula lupa asal usul. Pakaian seksi maut, bercinta pula dgn lelaki mat saleh. Ke hulu ke hilir menayang boyfriendnya yg bermata biru.

Satu hari dia ternampak lelaki Inggeris tadi dgn wanita lain yg lebih cantik dan bergaya daripadanya.
Tijah menangis tiga hari tiga malam. Pada malam ke empat, Tijah mengambil sehelai kertas dan menulis surat untuk memutuskan perhubungannya dgn lelaki mat saleh tadi yg baru sebulan dikenalinya.


*****************************************************************************

Mike....

I WANT TO CUT CONNECTION US.

I have think about this very cook-cook. I know I clap one hand only.
Correctly, I have seen you and she walk-walk together at town with eyes myself. You grab hand she.

You always ask for apology back-back. I don't trust you again! You are really crocodile land.

My friend speak you play wood three. First-first I think my friend lie me. But now I know you correct-correct play wood three.

So, I break connection to pull my body from this love triangle. I know this result I pick is very correct, because you love she very high from
me.

So, I cut this connection to go far from here. I don't want you to play-play with my liver.

I have been crying until no more eye water thinking about you. I don't want banana to fruit two times.

Safe walk..
Tijah

And i wanna to translate this whole letter. hahhahah~ correct my Bahasa pls :P mind you - this is direct translation =p

Mike,
I nak putuskan hubungan kita.

I dah fikirkan tentang ni masak-masak. I tahu i bertepuk sebelah tangan sahaja.

Sebenarnya, i ternampak you dan dia berjalan-jalan bersama di bandar dengan mata i sendiri. You pegang tangan dia.

You selalu balik-balik minta maaf. I dah tak percayakan you lagi! You memang buaya darat.

Kawan i cakap you main kayu tiga. Awal-awal i ingatkan kawan i tipu i. tapi sekarang i tau u mmg betul-betul main kayu tiga.

Jadi, i nak putuskan hubungan untuk pergi jauh dari sini. I tak mahu u main-main dengan hati i.

I dah menangis sampai takde airmata kerana memikirkan tentang u. I tak nak pisang berbuah dua kali.

Selamat Jalan..
Tijah

hang gelak pasai apa? hahahahah!

~aNiSr~

i can't continue this. it's just a DEJAVU of what happened to me and Super-Fast-Good-Friend. but thinking back, i just need more time to recover. maybe it's just like my good-colleague said 'mungkin die takde pape kot weh, mungkin pada dia biasa je'.

i've posted about this person few days ago, and it seems turn out to be errr~ i dunno. this person sounds serious eventhough i always tell myself that we are in like 'saje suke-suke' @ 'friends only' relationship now.

i don't want to repeat the same mistakes. seriously the way i see it, i'm turning back the way i am before i've met Super- Fast-Good-Friend.

plus the hesitation is there. might be because i'm still thinking about that freaky Super-Fast-Good-Friend. i dun want same thing to happen. i just feel something not right somewhere.

i missed the way that i feel towards Super-Fast-Good-Friend - SINCERITY & TRUTHFULLY & BEING MYSELF

i want to be fair to myself and the other party.

so no more sms(es) today.

~aNiSr~

weeeheee~ not mine. but 'closest's thihihii~ weeeeeeeeeeeeee! can't wait to show off the baju that i curik from my aunt's closest. with permission la dude! =p she doesn't want it anymore. so, me just grabbed it la. luckily the baju is so ngam ngam choy with my body. weeehuuuu! and she said the baju is gift from anak raja royalty mane ntah. ahahhah~ giler aku pakai baju anak raja. bawang putih bawang merah lalalalala~ untung-untuk kawen ngan anak raja. aminnnnnnnnnnn~

got matching bag as well. bought it from GUESS. weeeeeeeeee!

thanks 'closest' for making the call! weeeeeeeeeee~ received a call from 'closest' always made my day....

~aNiSr~

Weekend Plans

Saturday

Day

Ex-colleague wedding
Open house @ Rawang
Office colleague beraya at hommie

Mr Taw beraya at hommie

Night

'Closest' Annual Dinner @ Westin Hotel (can't wait!)

Sunday

Day
Neighbour's wedding

• No More Hoping


• No More Waiting


• No More Denial


• No More Lie


• No More Avoiding


• No More Thinking

~aNiSr~

EFFECTS OF COLD WATER

Please be a true friend and send this article to all your friends you care about.



For those who like to drink cold water, this article is applicable to you. It is nice to have a cup of cold drink after a meal. However, the cold water will solidify the oily stuff that you have just consumed. It will slow down the digestion. Once this "sludge" reacts with the acid, it will break down and be absorbed by the intestine faster than the solid food. It will line the intestine. Very soon, this will turn into fats and lead to cancer. It is best to drink hot soup or warm water after a meal.
A serious note about heart attacks - You should know that not every heart attack symptom is going to be the left arm hurting. Be aware of intense pain in the jaw line.
You may never have the first chest pain during the course of a heart attack. Nausea and intense sweating are also common symptoms. 60% of people who have a heart attack while they are asleep do not wake up. Pain in the jaw can wake you from a sound sleep. Let's be careful and be aware. The more we know the better chance we could survive.
A cardiologist says if everyone who reads this message sends it to 10 people, you can be sure that we'll save at least one life. Read this & Send the link to a friend. It could save a life. So, please be a true friend and send this article to all your friends you care about.

~aNiSr~

'ex ko dah nak kawen.'

wohoooo~ one of my colleague IMed me and told that this colleague IMed her and ask her whether she got anybody. then he told her that her ex gonna get married soon. haih! and her tears just went out like water melalui Paip Air Syabas. hhuuuuh~ pity her. seriously! why? she just can't forget about him eventhough it happened quite a long time ago.

my opinion? errr~ i think she already see her future with him that time. what i've said so, bcoz this lady is 2 years older than me which means she's 26, and that guy kalau tak silap 3 years older than me 27 ke 28 ntah. so cam sesuai sgt la kan nak tie-the-knot. but then, that guy left her simply like, not pick up the calls, not replying the sms (sounds familiar?) and then pooooffff ~ we are no longer in the relationship. yup! that easy. but she did told us (me and other good colleagues) that, the guy did tell her after they had serious talk after the broke off thingy, he felt so 'uncomfortable' when she called him 'sayang' and lemas with the cintan cintun environment. haih! tu je? then i was like? that can be change if you know the meaning of DISCUSS or TALK TO EACH OTHER? like i said before in previous post, when the love is gone, when you just lost IT, you can give a whole word reason. whether logic or not? still consider as VALID reason. but at least THERE is one.

but i'm proud of them as they still remain as friends...

*i wonder how on earth am i gonna react if i received this kind of tie-the-knot news~

~aNiSr~

Happy Halloween!

I always want to celebrate this day. Always berangan to be in Europe country and knock every houses and shout 'Trick or Treat!' weeeeeeeeee~ must be fun. everybody walking around with all freaky suits and horror costumes. it's just so FUN! yeah! i'm 24 that sounds like 4 years old :P

maybe i wanna wear the Dracula suit if there is any Halloween celebration in Malaysia this year. kenkonon cam Batman Superman la kan? wearing Batman @ Superman suits sounds fun too aight? but of coz no underwear outside la deyyyy :P ahhahaha~

and i want the Halloween pumpkin toooooooooooo~ decorate the house and light up the pumpkin! weeeeeeeeee!

saw this banner at Hitz.fm. my all time fav radio station! :D i likeeee~

~aNiSr~

Weekend Plans

Saturday

Day

Ex-colleague wedding
Open house @ Rawang
Office colleague beraya at hommie

Mr Taw beraya at hommie

Sunday

Day
Neighbour's wedding

~aNiSr~

one question that drives me crazy me now is - WHY

• Why did he turn away?



• Why did he SIMPLY change his mind?



• Why is that easy? - easy to come, easy to go?



• Why has to be like this?



• Why he has to avoid everything?

If they doesn't tell you anything, how can you improve? By guessing?

Does that means when someone let out their true feeling easily, made them easier to turn away? Or it's just them? Who doesn't want someone to love them?

Or they just simply SELFISH? Or they just simply has their own EGO? Well, everybody has it! but it depends on how are you gonna CONTROL it. whether you WANT to control it.

arrgghhh~ don't bother please! he don't even think or regret about it!

~aNiSr~

Today i received sad news that my neighbour has passed away this morning due to diabetes.

Yesterday, - one of our retailer's wife passed away at 2am due to esophagus cancer

Sunday - Sheikh Muszaphar's brother passed away after a week of coma. I'm sure u guys knew about it.

and when i opened Utusan Online this morning - one of top cardiologist passed away due to terrible accident at Karak Highway.

Sesungguhnya kepada Dia juga kita kembali.Kita tidak akan mengetahui bilakah tibanya hari kita.

Bekerjalah kamu seolah-olah akan hidup selama seribu tahun dan beribadatlah seolah-olah kamu akan mati keesokan hari.

Sesungguhnya Allah Maha Mengetahui....

~aNiSr~

*i wanted to post summary of weekend plans but still in the progress. :p so i decided to type about this fellows!

i had about more than 40 sms from this 2 person last nite. from Mr Taw and 'closest'. while waiting to clear up my 'closest' house yesterday (actually while waiting for the guests to chow chin chow sebenarnye :P), sms Mr Taw, and i think we were tit tot tit tot sms-ing nearly 20 smses.

at the same time, i smsed 'closest' about Anuar Zain and 'closest' commented that 'die dah cam kurus sket la' thihihi~ sbb i la tu :P hahhahha! then when i came back home (that time is about 11pm), i started to continue sms-ing but with 'closest'. there goes our hope story, birthday present story, gossips all together, till nearly 2am in the morning. :P but u know what, actually while sms-ing 'closest', most of time i was doze off then woke up, doze off, woke up 'cause hearing 'Because of You-NeYo' ringtone :P i think 2am sharp, i really have the REAL sleep. but we had nice conversation through sms though! weeehuuuu~you rock !

i think there goes the Numb Head story. thihihi~

~aNiSr~

my head was numb!

not enough sleep. confirm! till i doze off in a discussion. and i curik curik kuar to sleep at surau. seriously my head was like flying and the worst part, i felt numb. yup~

*crave for fajitas nachos combo add guacamole now... sob*sob*

~aNiSr~

Tired!

• Physically & emotionally



• Tired of guessing



• Tired of waiting ? Might be~

Current emotion

• Miserable



• Anger



• Frustration

My heart now is like an A4 paper been crushed with two bare hands

it's VERY hard to let it go when you used to really believe in it.

~aNiSr~

Just loved this song. Heard it when i watched one documentary about one lady who gets HIV & AIDS. then i searched at AresLite. but turn out the lyrics was so 'kena' again. but haih~ nothing can be undo...

Aku Mau

Kau boleh acuhkan diriku
Dan anggap ku tak ada
Tapi takkan merubah perasaanku
Kepadamu

Kuyakin pasti suatu saat
Semua kan terjadi
Kau kan mencintaiku
Dan tak akan pernah melepasku

Aku mau mendampingi dirimu
Aku mau cintai kekuranganmu
Selalu bersedia bahagiakanmu
Apapun terjadi
Kujanjikan aku ada

Kau boleh jauhi diriku
Namun kupercaya
Kau kan mencintaiku
Dan tak akan pernah melepasku

Aku mau mendampingi dirimu
Aku mau cintai kekuranganmu
Aku yang rela terluka
Untuk masa lalu

by : Once

Speedy Wish List

- Superman T-Shirt - long sleeve better

- Transformer T-Shirt - same as above

- save more money - will you Anis? :P

- GET RID of HIM from MY FREAKING MIND 99%! - A.S.A.P. - (but, bukan ke makin nak cepat lupe, makin lagi takleh @ susah nak lupe? daimmm!) but now already 80%. yup! sket je lagi ... lalallala~

*Slowly Miss Anis, pray hard to Allah, definitely He will help you....

~aNiSr~

1st game : 122

2nd game : 105

yeah! suck! i know. need to re-adjust my ball lol :P the 'lubang' (wooopsss~giler keji pemikiran reader gua!heh!) cam dah longgar with my fingers. ceceece~ kire sbb tu la tak power :D
Uncle John! gonna see you soon ;)


~aNiSr~

u know what? i' confused and frustrated and REALLY TIRED....

too much things happen in one day! too much feelings in one day too!

just had chat with 'closest' about his open house thingy.'closest' really doesn't AGREE at all of me going to his house on 'next 3 weekend' haihhhh~ 'closest' said 'if he can't come to our house, why should you?' ' i already give him good time to think, but i think that's it!' adoiii~ and i'm just simply said ' ok, tak bagi pi, i tak pi la'.

tired of thinking now! tired of everything about him! and she started to bring all these 'pride' thingy which adoiii~ i'm suck at it. means i just don't like to think pasal 'pride' ni sume. it doesn't means that i don't care but i'm thinking at bright side, which 'why don't i just come for the sake of his 'closest?' but hey 'closest' eat more garam than you and she knows better. i know 'closest' doesn't want me to be 'terhegeh-hegeh @ tersua-sua' so, i'm like haihhhh~ ok la ok~ i don't lawan anymore, remember last time Anis? when you really try to lawan. long long time ago? haihhhh~

*too much haihhhh~ today! seriously...

~aNiSr~

this is for you Mr 'Taw' ahhahah! he likes to spell 'tau' as 'taw'. so i call him Mr Taw in my blog. wahhahaha! jgn mare bang~

he wants me to tell about him in my blog. sgt gedik! he used to be high school friend. met back errr~ i think through Friendster. that's why i loveeeeeeeeeeeeeee Friendster. sayang bangat ni :P

we just gedik-gedik on !YM just now, 'ala-ala berkenalan cam orang baru nak bercinta' kinda of chat la. hahahha~ actually before that, we talked about open house sume. then turn out to be this cute topic. i came out with 'skema' questions like ' awak suke makan ape, warne ape, suke pakai baju @ kasut jename ape' hahahahah~ crazy but fun! like last time, used to be asked by that questions. btul tak? sometimes, old fashion works weh! :D

i hope i've made your dream comes true. hahahahah!

~aNiSr~

saw this when opened up my Friendster .

Cancer
Initiate new ideas about what you want to do with friends over the next few months.

so ape plan untuk rerakan next month? haih~ do i still have the time for my friends next month? hope so!

~aNiSr~

feel cold!

yeah~ quite number of peeps around me asked 'are you ok?' 'u tak sehat ke?' even 'u nak org ofis kene jangkit ke? tolong balik bleh?'and it've been blurt out by a MANAGER! but not mine la-too bad :-S (see Anis! there are many people around that are concern about you!) they can see my voice changed, my face like no glowing (ceecee~ hilang seri sebab ape tu anis? makan ati ke? thihiih!), i'm like not energetic like i always do. and today, i had sprain on my shoulder when i tried to enter a room today. haih! tolak pintu sket dah kehel? sgt klasik kegedikan i :P but today, sangat malas ke tempat kerja okeh? haihhh~

but makin petang, i'm likeee woohooo!

i managed to get Cleo - October today!for what? free gift! thihiih~ actually the yesterday's session was for Cleo reader but then me as consider as 'special case' (customer yang tak reti-reti berjimat cermat di Clinique tu), so that consultant who is VERYYYY good in Customer Service, asked me to come. and yesterday, i've met new consultant who is also very good! very warmth and friendly. she asked me at the end of the session ' u ni tau pasal makeover sbb Cleo ke or Karen arrange for you to come' and i'm like 'errr, kalau bukan pasal Cleo, takleh datang ke?thihihi~' she was like ' eh takde la, ade jugak kite arrange for walk in customer, eh! (dalam nada-nada gosip liar :P) u kalau ade Cleo tu kan, u just bring the cut out, nanti u jumpe i, i bg u 2 piece item free.' i'm like wooohooo~ i'm gonna get it now man! die punye gelak la kan. ahahhaha~ then, bye bye sume, i'm like doing SPSA (only Chevroners will know),where should i go, here or there, left or right. errrmmm~ then, i received a call from ' CLINIQUE KLCC' hahahhah! then she told me ' ey, tadi kan customer i carik kat this this place, dah takde, u try carik kat this this place pulak la.' wah! sangat geng with this senior consultant already. :P and like carik punye carik tapi unfortunately takde :'( then called her back, mentioned gonna see her as soon i get the mags. and she's like laughing and laughing. last but not least, thank her for the great session. thihihih~

*Anis will definitely try her best and work very hard to get what she wants \:D/

~aNiSr~

BOWLING today!!!!

miss it so much~ sebulan cuti kan? thihihihi~ wanna throw the ball- through the lane - hit the pin - HARDLY.muahahahah!

~aNiSr~

'dah takyah harapkan ape-ape dari die lagi'

heard this many times, but still catching up what it's means and how is it work :P (saje buat tak paham dan malas nak buat sebenarnye)

yes, truth may hurts but it's a relief!!! i dun mind hearing all things bout him now. and i just couldn't bother (heheheh~ this one depends la :P sometimes, acara menyebok-nyebok tu penting :D)

still recovering from the super-down-crushed. i dunno till when i'm gonna feel like this (what i mean is, recovering part, not hoping part) but i know, i did pray hard and work hard for 'IT' and i always believe 'Allah sentiasa membantu hambaNya yang berusaha dan bertawakal kepadaNya...'

it's ok Anis, what to do, ade hikmat disebaliknya. as long you ikhlas (which i'm VERY sure on this), Allah tahu apa yang terbaik untukmu Cik Anis...

* i feel i wanna carry on typing but errrr~ ....

~aNiSr~

gilerrr funnnyy! penat gelak kat opis opppsss~ sent by colleague - very polished and always dresses well :D

TO MAKE A BABY..... There is not one dirty word in it, and it is funny.

The Smiths were unable to conceive children and decided to use a surrogate father to start their family. On the day the proxy father was to arrive, Mr. Smith kissed his wife goodbye and said, 'Well, I'm off now. The man should be here soon.'

Half an hour later, just by chance, a door-to-door baby photographer
happened to ring the doorbell, hoping to make a sale. 'Good morning,
Ma'am', he said, 'I've come to...'

'Oh, no need to explain,' Mrs. Smith cut in, embarrassed, 'I've been
expecting you.'

'Have you really?' said the photographer. 'Well, that's good. Did you know babies are my specialty?'

'Well that's what my husband and I had hoped. Please come in and have a seat'. After a moment she asked, blushing, 'Well, where do we start?'

'Leave everything to me. I usually try two in the bathtub, one on the
couch, and perhaps a couple on the bed. And sometimes the living room floor is fun. You can really spread out there.'

'Bathtub, living room floor? No wonder it didn't work out for Harry and me!'

'Well, Ma'am, none of us can guarantee a good one every time. But if we try several different positions and I shoot from six or seven angles, I'm sure you'll be pleased with the results.'

'My, that's a lot!', gasped Mrs. Smith.

'Ma'am, in my line of work a man has to take his time. I'd love to be In and out in five minutes, but I'm sure you'd be disappointed with that.'

'Don't I know it,' said Mrs. Smith quietly.

The photographer opened his briefcase and pulled out a portfolio of his baby pictures. 'This was done on the top of a bus,' he said.

'Oh, my God!' Mrs. Smith exclaimed, grasping at her throat.

'And these twins turned out exceptionally well - when you consider their mother was so difficult to work with.'

'She was difficult?' asked Mrs. Smith.

'Yes, I'm afraid so. I finally had to take her to the park to get the job
done right. People were crowding around four and five deep to get a good look' 'Four and five deep?' said Mrs. Smith, her eyes wide with amazement.

'Yes', the photographer replied. 'And for more than three hours, too.
The mother was constantly squealing and yelling - I could hardly
concentrate, and when darkness approached I had to rush my shots.
Finally, when the squirrels began nibbling on my equipment, I just had to pack it all in.'

Mrs. Smith leaned forward. 'Do you mean they actually chewed on your, uh...equipment?'

'It's true, Ma'am, yes.. Well, if you're ready, I'll set-up my tripod and
we can get to work right away.'

'Tripod?'

'Oh yes, Ma'am. I need to use a tripod to rest my Canon on. It's much too big to be held in the hand very long.'

Mrs. Smith fainted .........

hik~hik~hik~ :">

~aNiSr~

~I'm IN! Alhamdulillah.... (ade lagi keje :P)

hey ~ basically it's actually a ROTATION from one BU to another. but hey, i'm looking in bright side! it's like kinda promotion also as not ALL of us will have to be to that BU so, yeah! i took it as 'I'm Promoted!' hahahahh! back to my previous BU. wooohoooo~

you can do it Anis!

*i dunno whether i still have the time to post anything in the blog starting next week onwards. lalallalala~

~aNiSr~

rushed back home. then went to 'closest' house as my 'closest' from Cherating are here in KL. so, dinner at 'closest' house. i just simply adore their new house. then, went to the kitchen, and there goes~ Girls' Talk :D told about 2 invitation - 'used-to-be-other-half' & Super Fast Good Friend's 'closest'. weehhhooo~ she's like. ' pegi je! as a friend, jgn pedulik!' and she started to suggest her 'gila' idea which i definitely SOLIDLY won't do it la kan? :D

then she started to advise me lil bit here and there. and i'm glad that i told her bout them...

wanna know what the advices are? heheheh~ ttyl :P

Alhamdulillah! Kau telah mengurniakan keluarga yang bahagia buatku...

*need the sleep but wanna eat, so which one come first? lalallaa~ sahur la tu kirenye :D

~aNiSr~

Weekend Plans

Venue : KLCC

Time : 6.30pm

Chillis

• 1 Fajitas Nachos Combo add guacamole



• 1 Southwestern Egg Rolls

Take away please!

and ate @ Signature KLCC - Alone - Finished the 2nd menu. 1st menu - makan atas katil :P

Clinique

Just do it for me will you? But i had so much fun! :D

End up with these - Eye Favourite Set

~aNiSr~

yup! suddenly down gilerrr~ just knew something from colleague about my presentation yesterday (i mean last 2 days). my boss really not happy with mine. ranked as Last place. yup 7th out of 7th!

feel so depressed as i dissapointed my boss and definitely myself...

so, tonite gonna be crazy nite. me gonna eat more! definitely! pray hard as i don't want to do some Released-the Depression-Shopping! it's killing me and my credit card machine at the cashier as well!

~aNiSr~

sent by one of GFC's

Subject: Two Choices

What would you do?....you make the choice. Don't look for a punch line, there isn't one. Read it anyway. My question is: Would you have made the same choice?

At a fundraising dinner for a school that serves learning-disabled children, the father of one of the students delivered a speech that would never be forgotten by all who attended. After extolling the school and its dedicated staff, he offered a question: "When not interfered with by outside influences, everything nature does is done with perfection. Yet my son, Shay, cannot learn things as other children do. He cannot understand things as other children do. Where is the natural order of things in my son?"

The audience was stilled by the query.

The father continued. "I believe that when a child like Shay, physically and mentally handicapped comes into the world, an opportunity to realize true human nature presents itself, and it comes in the way other people treat that child."

Then he told the following story:

Shay and his father had walked past a park where some boys Shay knew were playing baseball. Shay asked, "Do you think they'll let me play?" Shay's father knew that most of the boys would not want someone like Shay on their team, but the father also understood that if his son were allowed to play, it would give him a much-needed sense of belonging and some confidence to be accepted by others in spite of his handicaps.

Shay's father approached one of the boys on the field and asked (not expecting much) if Shay could play. The boy looked around for guidance and said, "We're losing by six runs and the game is in the eighth inning. I guess he can be on our team and we'll try to put him in to bat in the ninth inning."

Shay struggled over to the team's bench and, with a broad smile, put on a team shirt. His Father watched with a small tear in his eye and warmth in his heart. The boys saw the father's joy at his son being accepted. In the bottom of the eighth inning, Shay's team scored a few runs but was still behind by three. In the top of the ninth inning, Shay put on a glove and played in the right field. Even though no hits came his way, he was obviously ecstatic just to be in the game and on the field, grinning from ear to ear as his father waved to him from the stands. In the bottom of the ninth inning, Shay's team scored again. Now, with two outs and the bases loaded, the potential winning run was on base and Shay was scheduled to be next at bat.

At this juncture, do they let Shay bat and give away their chance to win the game? Surprisingly, Shay was given the bat. Everyone knew that a hit was all but impossible because Shay didn't even know how to hold the bat properly, much less connect with the ball.

However, as Shay stepped up to the plate, the pitcher, recognizing that the other team was putting winning aside for this moment in Shay's life, moved in a few steps to lob the ball in softly so Shay could at least make contact. The first pitch came and Shay swung clumsily and missed. The pitcher again took a few steps forward to toss the ball softly towards Shay. As the pitch came in, Shay swung at the ball and hit a slow ground ball right back to the pitcher.

The game would now be over. The pitcher picked up the soft grounder and could have easily thrown the ball to the first baseman. Shay would have been out and that would have been the end of the game.

Instead, the pitcher threw the ball right over the first baseman's head, out of reach of all team mates. Everyone from the stands and both teams started yelling, "Shay, run to first! Run to first!" Never in his life had Shay ever run that far, but he made it to first base. He scampered down the baseline, wide-eyed and startled.

Everyone yelled, "Run to second, run to second!" Catching his breath, Shay awkwardly ran towards second, gleaming and struggling to make it to the base. By the time Shay rounded towards second base, the right fielder had the ball ... the smallest guy on their team who now had his first chance to be the hero for his team. He could have thrown the ball to the second-baseman for the tag, but he understood the pitcher's intentions so he, too, intentionally threw the ball high and far over the third-baseman's head. Shay ran toward third base deliriously as the runners ahead of him circled the bases toward home.

All were screaming, "Shay , Shay, Shay, all the Way Shay"

Shay reached third base because the opposing shortstop ran to help him by turning him in the direction of third base, and shouted, "Run to third! Shay, run to third!"

As Shay rounded third, the boys from both teams, and the spectators, were on their feet screaming, "Shay, run home! Run home!" Shay ran to home, stepped on the plate, and was cheered as the hero who hit the grand slam and won the game for his team.

"That day", said the father softly with tears now rolling down his face, "the boys from both teams helped bring a piece of true love and humanity into this world".

Shay didn't make it to another summer. He died that winter, having never forgotten being the hero and making his father so happy, and coming home and seeing his Mother tearfully embrace her little hero of the day!

AND NOW A LITTLE FOOTNOTE TO THIS STORY: We all send thousands of jokes through the e-mail without a second thought, but when it comes to sending messages about life choices, people hesitate. The crude, vulgar, and often obscene pass freely through cyberspace, but public discussion about decency is too often suppressed in our schools and workplaces.

If you're thinking about forwarding this message, chances are that you're probably sorting out the people in your address book who aren't the "appropriate" ones to receive this type of message. Well, the person who sent you this believes that we all can make a difference. We all have thousands of opportunities every single day to help realize the "natural order of things." So many seemingly trivial interactions between two people present us with a choice: Do we pass along a little spark of love and humanity or do we pass up those opportunities and leave the world a little bit colder in the process?

A wise man once said every society is judged by how it treats it's least fortunate amongst them.

You now have two choices:
1. Delete
2. Forward

May your day, be a Shay Day…

~aNiSr~

i think i'm going to treat someone for celebrating this 'promotion' going on! errrr~ let's see.

i'm gonna call 'closest' later. but alaaa~ yesterday 'closest' already told me she has plan tonite. aiyaaaa~ 'closest' got plan already. haih~ then, treat myself je la! Fajitas Nachos Combo add guacamole @ Chillis KLCC! weeeeee~

and had reschedule my make Makeover as well. tonite! weeeeehuuuu!

~aNiSr~

'I want you to validate this with your current supervisor - You have high potential means very good in building up relationship and maintain that relationship with various level of people - Business Partners, other parties, which i want you to include it in your PMP.' good feedback nehhh? yup! i'm very proud of it. they know 'm capable to attract many kind or various level of people. they want see more from me. so, i'm gonna show them. i've told them that 'i want to give a shot' they asked me why i didn't apply for 'this post' before. simply because, 'i don't have confidence at all, zero' simply that! but now, i think it's time. i'm going to take this opportunity @ challenge and move forward. why people can see IT in you but you don't?

Go For It Anis!

~aNiSr~

yup! just went out from the 'It's The Day' moment (group session). but now am out for a while as there will be Individual session next. haih~ my turn, 4th. so 15mnutes x 4 = about an hour to go. adoiiiii!!!!

am i really IN?

~aNiSr~

Weekend Plans

Saturday

Day
Renew Car Insurance
Free Makeover
Be in the house - BFF coming over with his hubby!

Night
Colleague's Wedding

Sunday

Day & Night
'Closest' Open House

but i think i want to reschedule the Makeover to tonight? sempat tak?

~aNiSr~

this joke never fail to make me laugh and think dirty! hahahahahah....

I have one

You have one

Your mother uses your father's one

And your auntie uses your uncle's one

A married lady would acquire one

But a divorced lady would lose her one

Arnold Schwarzenneger has a longer one

Michael J. Fox has a shorter one

Madonna doesn't have one

The Chinese usually have short ones

While the Indian usually have long ones

Do you have one?

How long is your one?

Which one is your preferred one?

(see below for answer)

what you are thinking of! go down......

Answer : its your Surname, what else !!

but I like the way you think .........

GOOD DAY!!!

~aNiSr~

BFF alert!

i grabbed ' Malaysian Today' at SFH downstairs in my office like i always do every week. today's topic - BAD BUDDIES and i saw the BFF means - BELOVED FOE FOREVER!

haihhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! in my blog, i posted BFF! which i meant is ' BEST FRIEND FOREVER' ok?!!!

takut tersalah paham plak :P

love you guys~ hugs & kisses :=*

~aNisr~

yesterday, i called it 'Calling BFF Day'! :D

i called my MMU's BFF to invite her to come to my 'closest' open house, and we had quick chat on the phone. then i received her sms ' Cik Anis tgh drive ke? sy masuk lif td, x puas le sakap2 dgn awak hihi' i was laughing in front of my Desktop while reading that sms from her. so obvious sgt gedik! before the sms, she already missed call me but i'm like errrr~ die tertekan ke? but then after i received the sms, i realized that she wants me to call her back. aiyaaa~ terlupe jap on how we actually used to be communicate during your 'prepaid' time. hahahah~ main missed call je paham, means 'ok', 'yes', 'alrite', 'got the message!', 'got it'. hahahahah! cute huh! that why i love our friendship so much. too many cute things between us! :P we've got wave man! got wave! yeah! i think we can see CLEARLY on that. nak sakit pon same-same, nak ter-email-email pon same-same. :p nak pi shopping pon tersama-sama walaupun tak terjumpe :P

then later, called my High School BFF. to invite her also. but then turned out gossip here and there lil bit. what was the gossip again? ahaaa~ bout my High School Super Crush. he's now errr ~ looked more hanseeemmm and sgt kemas i tell u. he went to my BFF's last weekend. last time he was like 'agak comot' la kan. hgh school! what you expect lol!

but he's the 1st person that i think really appreciate me THAT much!

1st person :

• who put Valentine's Card under my 'meja sekolah'



• who creates a signature with my name on it.



• who creates an e-mail address with combining his and my name on it



• who gives a ring before i went to Japan for Student Exchange Program



• who said he's in love with me

turns out quite bad because i told him 'No' answer. how bad? threated on commit suicide ? yup! that bad! the next day, he didn't came to school and i was sOOOOoooooOOOOOooo FREAK out man! tolong la jgn buat keje bodoh tuuuu pls! but hey, he's still alive till today. :P heheheh~ guess he need to go away for a while after the 'No' session.

but that time, skolah la weh. so i'm kinda still like wanna chill around and having school fun time. but i remember that he actually called and said IT out to me through the phone, but i only treat him as my Good Buddy. but haih! Friends can turn out to be Lovers right? but still, that time i just can't be in the relationship, simpy because :

• i don't want



• i just broke up with my 1st Love which i called the 'Real Cinta Monyet yang Psycho!'



• he's just not the-kind-of-my-type woooppssiee~

hahaha~ n then i told her ' agak-agak kalau aku masuk line balik, dapat tak?' and she was like laughing like mad. 'bongok ko anis!' hahahahah! and she told me 'weh, die penah btau aku tau yg baru-baru ni ko penah ajak die pi bowling, fuhhh~ satu dunia die btau!' heheheh~ means what? he's still waiting for me? hahahahahaha!

but hey Mr MSY, thank you for all that. you teached me on the real part of APPRECIATE means. i think we became better friends now aight. don't you think? i do!

now, when reading all these, what goes around comes around, don't you think so? tapi aku redha~ llalalala~

* didn't i tell u, when i tried to call my MMU's bff, i terdail salah speed dial? it turned out to be me tertekan his @ Super Fast Good Friend's speed dial - his house! whewww~nasib baik!

~aNiSr~

about 1 hour and 13 minutes to go for 'It's The Day' moment. which is whether who's gonna be in & who's not, to be in 'that' Business Unit. haihhh~ eventhough my boss already bocor-the-rahsia already yesterday, but still i didn't feel secure as people might change their mind in split second! but i'm quite pleased when my boss told me that 'The-2-Top-Bosses' already confirmed to pull out my name to be in 'that BU, so i'm kinda feel like 'Im the Chosen one' hehehheheh~ yup! positive mind will turns you well....

~aNiSr~

Alhamdulillah!

i guess i'm gonna start new 'job' next week (early November). eventhough i don't like the job, but then when the Top Management believe that i can do it, so what to do? maybe that 'job' not that bad. it's because i just simply can't ngam with this particular lady in that Business Unit, i felt she just hate me without reason lol. alaaa~ can tell weh, not because i'm being negative or what but can see from the eyes please?!! but wth, when Top Management wants you means, hey!you have to accept me too ok? lalalalalla~

i'm scared of losing my LIFEEEEE! means ronggeng-cucuk-angin life :P

but like the 'closest' advised me yesterday - 'alaaaa, akan adenye. pepandai la carik time untuk beronggeng tu, macam .... ni. hihihihi! thanks 'closest'! appreciate that! :P

~aNiSr~

yesterday, 'closest' called me hmmmm~ 3 times i guess. 1st time, just asked bout some email that this 'closest' receive, just wonder whether i knew bout it or not, then suddenly 'closest' just called again, simply to mention that '..... tak call sume, bukan sbb tak ingat tau..... mmg tak penah lupe ok' alahaiii! so sweet, seriously i'm touched! maybe because i used to tell the 'closest' that ' tak ingat kite dah ke?' hauuuuuuhhh~ so mean of me. but actually during that time, i really meant it though. but put in a JOKE way, so that didn't made it looked so obvious. that time 'closest' quite busy with raya, so no calls or smses. haiiiyaa anis! please... positive pls!

~aNiSr~

while i was driving to office, suddenly i felt i wanted to call someone -'dear' or 'sayang' or 'love' - hahahah~ poor me! sakit suda. but hey, i just LOVE to spread the LOVE to anybody but not all people outhere can really appreciate on that aight? last time i used to call this 'diff-ethnic colleague 'dear', hun' but then turn out, he's errrr~ aiyakkk u know la what happen, it's just a simply a simple expression @ simple word when you calling people, but then haihhh~ so i can't afford to hurt more feelings with my love-to-spread-the-love- attitude, so i just back off before it became worse.

~aNiSr~

i can feel my POSITIVE chi is so high now! weeehuuuuuu!

~aNiSr~

which one should i start first?

hmmmm.... ok let me start with - i woke up this morning with 'sangat memuaskan tido saye malam tadi' heheheh~ maybe because, the presentation was over, and PLUS! about 1/2 hour before i slept last nite, i received a call from 'closest' + s (including 'closest' at the background of the conversation :P) who invited me to the Open House on next 2 (hey it's 3 if including this weekend. means last day of raya) wwehhhhoooo~ ok anis! think positively. don't be perasan lagi. but you know what, this time, i'm very sure it's because they simply love me :P simply want me to be there.(i'm been sincere to myself lol) siap tanya '..... makan .... tak?' weehhhuuu! now i can order my own menu? eehhehehe~ before that 'closest' asked me whether i'm free or not during that day. so my impression would be? 'if i'm not free, won't be any open house then?' ahhahaah~ yup perasan me again. but perasan because of them - The Warmth Family, not because of him anymore. last time i used to be like, when 'closest' contacted me, i felt ' hmmm.... this might be he asked to do so (konon nak amik ati/ impress la kan?)' but now, aa aaa! nadddaaa~ not anymore. im pretty sure that they are accepting me as who i am, not because of amik hati or impress kinda thing. then i (yeah! started to be the SuperMajor Thinker) if i'm REALLY in (yeah big I) the relationship by now, maybe, it will whole lot fun though, but i was thinking, how am i gonna behave or see him on that day? must be tough one, but hey! when you have the 3 adorable ladies there and plus the 3rd in the 'closest', wth aight??!! i know he won't care whether i will be there or not....

~aNiSr~

thinking back~

this is not the 1st time i've got this offer. once, this 'expat' manager had offered me but in a joke-kinda-serious way. but i just thought, it might be a saje-gurau-gurau-offer but till this manager's manager came personally to me, and made that offer and wants me to think bout it, ' tell me next monday!' i'm errrr~ speechless that time. and the next monday, i was quite bz that day, and i almost forgot to tell him (sebenarnye i wished i totally forgot bout it) then the next day (which tuesday), terbertembung dgn this boss, and he just simply ' hey! remember you suppose to see me today?' haiiiiippppp!!!!! i'm DEAD meat! 'ok!' and with kerang busuk smile. haih~ then went to see him in his room, and told him that i just want to proceed with current job as so far,i like this job. but then he said if i moved to 'that' Business Unit, i'm gonna learn more things and even faster! haiyaaa! dah boss tu mmg pandai la tembak balik kan? then, i said, 'for time being, let me continue with this current job, and really appreciate the offer and thank you for believing in me, but currently this is want i really want to do, my passion. i hope there is other opportunity for me in future' and his answer made me feel so 'Up-High' ' i believe where ever you go, you gonna be fine, i know you will, so don't worry. there will be'

some where before that i told him i wanna apply this one post, and then he said he may discuss with 'right' people and how they can arrange about it. and i said to myself ' ni politik bangat ni :P' but then, at the end of the day, i didn't submit for that particular post. i don't want to caught up in this 'office politic thingy' - kind of! :P

but, thank you so much for believing in me Sir! :D

~aNiSr~

*Should be posted yesterday (24th Oct) :P tapi kepenatan melampau, i have to carry forward lol :O

Spiky in Memories (8th July 2007 - 24th October 2007)

Female Tortoise in Memories (15th September 2007-16th October 2007 ~i think~)

uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~ 2nd ternakan ku! Blue Fish (dunno the exact feature of this fish :P) my first tortoise (female) also gone forever last week after i came back from Cherating. sob!sob! too much been 'ditimpa' by the male one i think :P

and today, 'closest' called and 'nak btau brite sedih ni. ikan awak dah mati~' isk!isk! i'm like??????? huwaaaa~ why must today? is there anyhidden meaning all these ternakan mati? uhhuhuhu! but what to do, like my colleageau always told me 'if it's time to go, time to go.' haihhhh~ just last two days, my nephew had challenged me to bring my Spiky to 'berlaga' with his. jodoh tak sampai, nak buat camne....

i dunno how to tell my another nephew about this Spiky. i'm scared they must be 'kecik ati' coz they bought me Spiky for my 24th birthday. haiihhh~

I did the unofficial funeral ceremony :-S for the Female tortoise, and 'closest' did for Spiky.

Spiky the Blue Fish the one on the left :'(

May rest in peace...

~aNiSr~

lot of things to jot here but can't manage to open my eyes. 2night without fail - haunted by the freaking presentation. but i did jot some points on the notepad - save as - ok - continue tomorrow!

~aNiSr~

saw this in Friendster - New Horoscope

Cancer
Think long and hard before you share any opinions today -- and watch what you say.

whhheewwww~ too late to read this huh? :-S

~aNiSr~

i'm screwed!
i'm screwed!
i'm screwed!
i'm screwed!
i'm screwed!
i'm screwed!
i'm screwed!
i'm screwed!
i'm screwed!
i'm screwed!
i'm screwed!
i'm screwed!
i'm screwed!
i'm screwed!
i'm screwed!
i'm screwed!
i'm screwed!
i'm screwed!
i'm screwed!
i'm screwed!
i'm screwed!
i'm screwed!

~aNiSr~

Bismillahirrahmanirahim...

Ya Allah, Kau permudahkanlah penyampaianku esok, berikanlah idea-idea bernas untuk ku menjawab soalan-soalan yang bakal ditanya kelak. Sesungguhnya aku bertawakal kepadamu Ya Allah. Bukakanlah hati mereka yang bakal mendengar penyampaianku esok agar mereka melihat kebolehanku yang sebenar. Jika ini adalah untukku, aku bersyukur, dan sesungguhnya jika ini bukan untukku, aku redha. Sesungguhnya Kau Maha Mengetahui lagi Maha Penyayang...

Amin, YaRabbalAlamin....

Do your best!

~aNiSr~

a call from 'closest' always made my day. it's like cam 'Munculnya Pelangi Selepas Hujan'. cececece~ i'm sure u gonna so perasan when u read this. but yes! today, i'm like shooting-the- rusty-bullets to you with all things that i kept inside quite some time.

u know what, i'm not angry that you didn't like @ love me back like i did, but it just because you turned away as simple as that. do u mean that all the things that you have said, what you did to me, getting to know 'closests', are nothing to you? c'mon! stand at one side please! stand up man! make up your mind. it's either Yes @ No, u can't be in between. it's like hmmmm.... what have you done to me before this is ONLY FRIEND type relationship? i don't know. i just want to know the reason why are you behaving like this? my good-colleague told me today, 'you suppose to get married to someone that can stick to you today and until the next 100years. don't be aahhh demmmitt~ married to her already today, tomorrow i'm gonna wake up without her i guess, then the next day, with her or without her!' wheeewww~ true!

hey! i can tolerate even worse than this, how can you know that i can't tolerate with you? but awayyyy before that, tell me! tell me a REASON (A means 1) i don't need a whole stack or a long list. i just need A reason to hold on. i've tried so hard to understand you. but you never let me. i've tried so hard to learn more about you, but we never had the chance. one thing that i know, you are really damn good in AVOIDING. superb! i tell you, but u know what, i always think positively when you try to avoid me, meaning that, 'alaaaa~ die busy tu' but then till when? last time, you used to be Superbusy too but still, can be friends aight? can still be contacted aight? but now? haihhh~ i thought i'm the only one who do too much the THINKING part, but i guess, you are like SuperThinker?

but please, don't do this to others. especially when you've meet your so called 'Another Half' one day. yup! the real one...

~aNiSr~

Suddenly i heard this song. used to dedicate to him. of course he never knew bout it? do you? haih~

As much as I love you
As much as I need you
And I can't stand you
Must everything you do make me wanna smile
Can I not like you for awhile? (No....)

But you won't let me
You upset me girl
And then you kiss my lips
All of a sudden I forget (that I was upset)
Can't remember what you did

But I hate it...
You know exactly what to do
So that I can't stay mad at you
For too long that's wrong

But I hate it...
You know exactly how to touch
So that I don't want to fuss.. and fight no more
Said I despise that I adore you

And I hate how much I love you boy (yeah...)
I can't stand how much I need you (I need you...)
And I hate how much I love you boy (oh whoa..)
But I just can't let you go
And I hate that I love you so (oooh..)

You completely know the power that you have
The only one makes me laugh

Said it's not fair
How you take advantage of the fact
That I... love you beyond the reason why
And it just ain't right

And I hate how much I love you girl
I can't stand how much I need you (yeah..)
And I hate how much I love you girl
But I just can't let you go
But I hate that I love you so

One of these days maybe your magic won't affect me
And your kiss won't make me weak
But no one in this world knows me the way you know me
So you'll probably always have a spell on me...

Yeaahhh... Oohh...

As much I love you (as much as I need you)
As much as I need you (oooh..)
As much I love you (oh..)
As much as I need you

And I hate that I love you so
And I hate how much I love you boy
I can't stand how much I need you (can't stand how much I need you)
And I hate how much I love you boy
But I just can't let you go (but I just can't let you go no..)
And I hate that I love you so

And I hate that I love you so.. so...

by : Rihanna feat Ne-Yo

why always so 'kena' one? haih! old memories la dey~

~aNiSr~

Received this e-mail from ex-colleague. i thought it is interesting to share...

TRUST is a very important factor for all relationships. When trust is broken, it is the end of the relationship. Lack of trust leads to suspicion, suspicion generates anger, anger causes enmity and enmity may result in separation.

A telephone operator told me that one day she received a phone call. She answered, 'Public Utilities Board.' There was silence. She repeated, 'PUB.' There was still no answer. When she was going to cut off the line, she Heard a lady's voice, 'Oh, so this is PUB. Sorry, I got the number from my Husband's pocket but I do not know whose number it is.'

Without mutual trust, just imagine what will happen to the couple if the telephone operator answered with just 'hello' instead of 'PUB'.

yeah! trust is sOOOooOOOo important. i believe in that. but if you trust somebody, but he doesn't want to try to trust you, can you dare to force them?

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NO POINTING FINGERS

A man asked his father-in-law, 'Many people praised you for a successful marriage. Could you please share with me your secret?'
The father-in-law answered in a smile, 'Never criticize your wife for her shortcomings or when she does something wrong. Always bear in mind that because of her shortcomings and weaknesses, she could not find a better husband than you.'

We all look forward to being loved and respected. Many people are afraid of losing face. Generally, when a person makes a mistake, he would look around to find a scapegoat to point the finger at. This is the start of a war. We should always remember that when we point one finger at a person, the other four fingers are pointing at ourselves.

If we forgive the others, others will ignore our mistake too.

yup! always forgive. u will never lose anything~ perhaps maybe i owe apologies to some people outhere.

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CREATING PERFECT RELATIONSHIPS?

A person visited the government matchmaker for marriage, SDU, and requested 'I am looking for a spouse. Please help me to find a suitable one.' The SDU officer said, 'Your requirements, please.' 'Oh, good looking, polite, humorous , sporty, knowledgeable, good in singing and dancing. Willing to accompany me the whole day at home during my leisure hour, if I don't go out. Telling me interesting stories when I need companion for conversation and be silent when I want to rest.' The officer listened carefully and replied, 'I understand you need television.'

There is a saying that a perfect match can only be found between a blind wife and a deaf husband, because the blind wife cannot see the faults of the husband and the deaf husband cannot hear the nagging of the wife. Many couples are blind and deaf at the courting stage and dream of perpetual perfect relationship. Unfortunately, when the excitement of love wears off, they wake up a nd discover that marriage is not a bed of roses. The nightmare begins.

is there any PERFECT person outhere? if yes, i think you will never learn new things and never know what is FUN is all about. too perfect = no gaduh-gaduh = no fun aight?

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NO OVERPOWERING

Many relationships fail because one party tries to overpower another, or demands too much. People in love tend to think that love will conquer all and their spouses will change the bad habits after marriage. Actually, this is not the case. There is a Chinese saying which carries the meaning that 'It is easier to reshape a mountain or a river than a person's character.'

It is not easy to change. Thus, having high expectation on changing the spouse character will cause disappointment and unpleasantness.

It would be less painful to change ourselves and lower our expectations..

yeeeessss~yup true true true. but Love is Blind and Love Makes You Numb too :P

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RIGHT SPEECH

There is a Chinese saying which carries the meaning that 'A speech will either prosper or ruin a nation.' Many relationships break off because of wrong speech. When a couple is too close with each other, we always forget mutual respect and courtesy. We may say anything without considering if it would hurt the other party.

A friend and her millionaire husband visited their construction site. A worker who wore a helmet saw her and shouted, 'Hi, Emily! Remember me? We used to date in the secondary school.' On the way home, her millionaire husband teased her, 'Luckily you married me. Otherwise you will be the wife of a construction worker.' She answered,'You should appreciate that you married me. Other wise, he will be the millionaire and not you.'

Frequently exchanging these remarks plants the seed for a bad relationship. It's like a broken egg - cannot be reversed.

respect always be the guidance in relationship. believe me! never goes wrong.

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PERSONAL PERCEPTION

Different people have different perception. One man's meat could be another man's poison. A couple bought a donkey from the market. On the way home, a boy commented, 'Very stupid. Why neither of them ride on the donkey? 'Upon hearing that, the husband let the wife ride on the donkey. He walked besides them. Later, an old man saw it and commented, 'The husband is the head of family. How can the wife ride on the donkey while the husband is on foot?' Hearing this, the wife quickly got down and let the husband ride on the donkey.

Further on the way home, they met an old Lady. She commented, 'How can the man ride on the donkey but let the wife walk. He is no gentleman.'
The husband thus quickly asked the wife to join him on the donkey. Then, they met a young man. He commented, 'Poor donkey, how can you hold up the weight of two persons. They are cruel to you.' Hearing that, the husband and wife immediately climbed down from the donkey and carried it on their shoulders.

It seems to be the only choice left. Later, on a nar row bridge, the donkey was frightened and struggled. They lost their balance and fell into the river. You can never have everyone praise you, nor will everyone condemn you. Never in the past, not at present, and never will be in the future.

Thus, do not be too bothered by others words if our conscience is clear..

see! if our consciense is CLEAR
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BE PATIENT

This is a true story which happened in the States. A man came out of his home to admire his new truck. To his puzzlement, his three-year-old son was happily hammering dents into the shiny paint of the truck. The man ran to his son, knocked him away, hammered the little boy's hands into pulp as punishment. When the father calmed down, he rushed his son to the hospital.

Although the doctor tried desperately to save the crushed bones, he finally had to amputate the fingers from both the boy's hands. When the boy woke up from the surgery & saw his bandaged stubs, he innocently said, 'Daddy, I'm sorry about your truck.' Then he asked, 'but when are my fingers going to grow back?' The father went home & committed suicide.

Think about this story the next time someone steps on your feet or u wish to take revenge. Think first before u lose your patience with someone u love. Trucks can be repaired.. Broken bones & hurt feelings often can't. Too often we fail to recognize the difference between the person and the performance. We forget that forgiveness is greater than revenge.

People make mistakes. We are allowed to make mistakes. But the actions we take while in a rage will haunt us forever.

'Good Life starts only when you stop wanting a better One'

' Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away '

no mistakes means what? that word again. PERFECT. perfect means no fun, no fun means no life. nadaaa~

~aNiSr~